Marwell Zoo

I had a really fun day today at the zoo with my family. It wasn't too busy and it wasn't too hot and it didn't rain! Win. Saw loads of animals, some of them I'd never seen before! I especially loved seeing the snow leopards, tigers and lemurs.

The funniest part of the day was all the attention my backpack got! I wore my ring-tailed lemur backpack that my dad got for me ages ago. There's not many times I can wear it but I thought today would be perfect. I got a lot of remarks off people both child and adult saying things like "I thought that was real then!" and "Look that girl has a lemur on her back!". It was most amusing. Then there was one kid, he was so sweet. He stood behind me, stroking the long tail, he looked up at me with a grin and said "You have a tail!". He was so sweet! Made my day.

My sister is putting photos on facebook as I type though we've already looked at hers and my dad's on the PS3. He got some really good ones!

I can't actually be bothered to blog that much now but I did have a good chat with Jen yesterday who phoned me on her way home from work. She cheered me up about things slightly and now I am super excited about Saturday! I actually can't wait. I'm also determined to get very drunk. Good times ahead.

Happy birthday Bossman

Not really much to write about today. I spoke to Lewis on msn for the first time in ages last night and it was nice. Makes me realise how much I miss my uni mates! I think I will have to go back to uni earlier than I planned to. I'm still not sure when though. Sometime in September...we'll see.

I wish I could get things off my mind. I really do.

I am mostly looking forward to Saturday though so all is good. Hopefully the weather will be dry enough!

Also, if it's nice tomorrow we're going to Marwell zoo! Which should be fun. Looking forward to that! I was speaking to Alice earlier, she said we need to do something before she dies of boredom, I totally agree. So I've said next week we need to do something to celebrate us both passing. She doesn't mind what we do so maybe we could go to the beach in the afternoon and go to a pub in the evening? Just a thought! Will see how that goes. I'll have to plan it after this weekend.

It's also edging closer to my OPM work experience and damn I am nervous! Eek!

Currently listening to: Lady Gaga-Bad romance (vidzone): "I want your ugly, I want your disease, I want your everything as long as it's free, I want your love. Love, love, love, I want your love."

Worthing

I've had a pretty good day. We all went to Worthing for the day because my dad was working there and it was something to do. We helped my dad unload everything before we went off shopping. I have kind of felt ill all day, I'm not sure why. Maybe the weather is affecting me in an odd way. It's been miserable today, I thought it might pour down at one point but it managed to stay dry thankfully. While walking around I felt very hot and a little bit sicky but I was fine. For lunch we had an ice-cream sundae which was so good but gone so quick! Eating something made me feel a little better so maybe it was just hunger...I don't know.

I didn't buy anything, there are too many things I currently want when I have no money. Well, I do have money but I am so paranoid on spending it as I am worrying about paying bills, etc in a few months time when I'm back at uni. I'm sure I will be fine but I do worry unnecessarily.

It's weird because I've had an okay day but I feel a bit down. I don't know why, or what about. I just do. Stupid emotions. I wish I didn't have any at all sometimes.

Relaxing day

Today has been a pretty good day. I started off the morning talking to Alex which was nice but I am very sad he's going away for a week in 2 weeks time! I guess it's only a week but it will seem like forever to me. Next year's going to be worse as I'm probably going on holiday for 2 weeks! But hopefully things will be better by then.

Today I got my new top from New Look which I love! So happy I grabbed a sale bargain and it goes with my purple/pink skirt I haven't been able to wear yet because I had no top to go with it! But now I can! Huzzah!

I've also been getting a couple more trophies on Dragon Age though I'm worry a couple may have glitched out on me...I'll know later on I guess. I really hope it hasn't fucked up for me!

Later on I had a four way game with Iain, Steve and Jake on Borderlands helping the Iain and Steve level up and get trophies. It was much fun as we were talking on MSN at the same time too. Good times. I didn't get long tonight so hopefully we'll get another chance to play with each other again. Oh and I was very grateful to Jake as he gave me a couple of Pearlescent weapons! One of them is a crazy SMG that fires spiraling bullets! I love it! And as I rightfully said: "My gun's so awesome it lags the game".

Tomorrow my dad is working in Worthing so me, my mum and my sister are tagging along to go shopping and maybe to the lovely ice-cream parlour they have there while my dad does his afternoon gig. So hopefully the weather is nice!

Alien invasion?

This morning, well by the time we went out it was actually afternoon, we popped along to the carboot. My sister picked up a couple of Harry Potter things but that was it as we'd arrived to late really. But the main reason we went out was to check out the sci-fi exhibition at Portsmouth's musuem. It was called "Alien Invasion" and had some pretty cool props! A red darlek, predator head, battlestar galatica costumes, a huge Alien, Mars Attacks aliens and a load of star wars stuff including a yoda, ewok, stormtrooper and darth Vader costume. By complete accident, I was wearing my Star Wars top. I walked past a huge fat bloke, with glasses, also wearing a star wars t-shirt. All that ran through my mind was "Please don't talk to me I don't want to be your special friend!". He didn't, of course but I had funny memories of the random bloke in a Jedi cape talking to Holly at MCM. Good times.

We looked around the rest of the museum too. They had a Sherlock Holmes exhibit and a history of Portsmouth and Southsea bit (which has been there forever). They also had some abstract art, most of it was utter balls as you'd expect. Still it made a change. After I got home the rest of the day has been spent grinding on Dragon Age, and no, not the fun kind of grinding, the kind which slowly drains away your soul...

Yesterday I got thinking, after my PSN being mobbed with people asking me if I'm a girl (then trying to add me) I wondered why does it matter if I'm a girl? I know the obvious answer is girl gamers, there's a lack of them and I suppose to most hardcore gamers they must be seen as some sort of Holy grail for men (as Johnboyy so graciously put it!) as sexual partners. Be that as it may I am targeting female gamers themselves here as I despise those sites where being a girl who games is EXTREMELY IMPORTANT. See sites such as "You got beat by a girl". I saying I don't like at all because it suggests girls should automatically be worse at gaming than men. Which is not true, obviously. Or other sites such as "Fragdolls" which is just a group of attractive female gamers. Great? So even when we're gaming we're still seen as *just* sex objects. Plus let's admit it, what girl gamer really looks like that? Seriously? I'm not saying we're unattractive but we're not super models either.

I'm not going to go off on a massive feminist rant but is it too much to just been seen as equal? If we can't even achieve this in the gaming world then God knows how we'll ever get equal pay...

Currently listening to: Will Young-If love equals nothing
"Am I looking for the right thing in the wrong place? Tell me why does my heart rule my head? I think it likes to be a fool, it likes to be mis-lead. If love equals nothing but sadness and pain, why do I need it time and time again? When it builds me up high then drops me to the floor, beating me, cheating me, I still come back for more."

Shopping

Today we, my mum, sister and I, went shopping later than expected because my mum took forever to get out of bed. It didn't really matter though as town was pretty quite really considering. It was a successful shopping trip, Sami got a very pretty dress from a market stall. The lady there was very persistent in selling something! I was hoping my mum wasn't being forcefully cornered into anything but it was ok as the lady sold us the dress for a tenner! She was trying to sell me one but I said no, she said "Don't you wear dresses?". I replied "I do. I just have enough...". God damn woman leave me alone!

We walked past Ann Summers and my mum laughed at the "beer wench" costume inside which somehow brought us on the subject of traditional Austrian wear. Yes, we talk about strange things when we go shopping! And I talk about/bring up the minions far too often! Though I think my mum likes it because she's said before that she feels "involved in my life" because I tell her so much about my friends, which is nice!

The only thing I got was a bargain underwear set which is uber pretty and was uber cheap so I was happy enough. My sister and I also got a shakeaway to share which was good! After all that we looked at the time and it was 3pm! So we decided to start walking home. It was a boiling hot day and I could feel a headache coming on again, walking home was pretty horrible and I kind of wish I'd worn shorts rather than jeans! Never mind.

I got home and took some painkillers straight away and laid down on the sofa for half an hour which has seemed to have worked for now. My sister has made cupcakes with vanilla butter icing on and dolly mixtures to decorate! Nom! But since I've just had a huge portion of butterscotch ice cream I think I will wait until later to try one. My sister is definitely the creative one of the family! Though she gave me a good idea today, she said I should make a scrap book and fill it with photos of my friends which I am actually loving the idea of. I could do one for university and put them in time order to remind me of uni. I could do a rocket minion one too and a version for my old friends! Sounds like an awesome idea to me! Though I think my dad will get arsey about me using all his printer ink but we'll see. It would give me something to do and would be a fantastic thing to look back through in the years to come.

Currently listening to: Nightwish-The phantom of the opera
"The phantom of the opera is here...inside my mind."

Excitement

Yesterday I was worried that someone didn't care enough, wasn't worried enough. I spoke to Bossman about my worries and immediately felt better. So much so today has been a good day for me and my worries were probably nothing to be worried about. As per usual for me then.

I'm not sure what to write about today. Especially as at the moment I am lying slanted on the sofa feeling a combination of headache, sickness and hunger. It's not good. I don't think I've drunk enough today and I've probably been playing Dragon Age for about 5 hours non-stop! Oops. Despite this I am mostly happy, even though I am envying the fact a lot of my friends will be going out tonight. Maybe it's because I am excited about next weekend's beach party. I am gutted Alex and Richie can't come but I'm sure it will still be a laugh. I am also wondering what kind of booze to bring with me. I'm sure I'll think of something before next weekend.

My sister is now off of school for the summer so I wonder if we will be spending more time together or not. I also realised my sister reminds me of those arty students at university. If you've been to uni you'll know what I mean, the ones who dress weird and have to look unique at all times. Yep, that's definitely my sister! Not that there's anything wrong with that, as long as she doesn't turn poncy about things I don't mind what she turns out like. And I'm sure that will never happen. After all, she told me once I'd been a good example for her. I'm sure how I've done this but it always makes me feel good about myself to know that really, underneath it all, I'm a good kid.

Currently listening to: Lady gaga-Alejandro
"She's got both hands in her pocket, and she won't look at you, won't look at you."