Happy new year!

Hmm where to start where to start...I need to catch up with so much. Well let's start with something positive. I had to get into work really early on wednesday which I was not happy at. But it did mean I got to go home an hour earlier at 4:30. Win! Plus I had a customer who made my day that day. A guy in his 50s asked me about TVs and high definition and blu rays and I talked him through it. He said he was going to go away with all this information and take it in but then he stopped, turned around to me and thanked me for being so informed in my product research. He said it was really nice for someone my age to know so much. It was so nice of him to say! Hardly any customers are that nice to me, it made me feel pretty good for the rest of the day. It just shows age doesn't mean anything. Well, most of the time!

To contrast that, Yvette's daughter often comes in to see her mum as she works just up the road at a printers. I was talking to her but not in such a way as to put of customers. I was still keeping my eye out for people who may need help. But, rudely enough, an old-ish woman and her husband were looking for microwaves and she said, right in front of me and Tanya "There's two members of staff there doing nothing." Excuse me?! For a start, you haven't even attempted to even LOOK at us to show that you want help. Secondly, you've walked right past the mircowaves, they're at the front of the shop you moron. Thirdly, TANYA DOESN'T WORK HERE! She doesn't have a fucking uniform on. Silly bint. I was so insulted. How could she be so rude in our eyeshot? She was literally right in front of us. Bitch.

As it was orange wednesday it was time to finally see Avatar. Oh my God. If you haven't seen that film go and watch it now! Preferably in 3D. It's one of the best, if not the best, film I've ever seen. It's just beautiful and not just special effects wise. It's a beautiful story with amazing characters. I cried at some points in the film, it really touched me. And now of course, I desperatly want to be a Navi! Haha! Can't wait to own it on blu ray. It's an orgasm for the eyes. Eyegasm! Absolutly brillaint and no bad points to it at all. Next up I really want to see Sherlock Holmes as it looks bloody funny! Plus it's had very good reviews. Maybe next week eh.

Today was my second last day of work. I finish on Saturday. Thank Christ. I need to get some uni work done as well as some much needed rest. Creepy Charlie came into the shop today. I hadn't seen him in a while and thought I had avoided him whilst working here again but oh no I hadn't. If I hadn't spoken about him before he sometimes does deliveries for customers. When I used to work at Currys every Saturday, when he met me he took my hand and...well...didn't want to let go. It was very awkward. And when I finally had to leave the shop he put his arm round me and I really was very uncomfortable and wanted nothing more than for him to shop touching me. Reminds me of the other day at work when I was pushing a TV across the floor to the till and I said excuse me to a group of people, two men and a woman. As I passed them one man said "Did she just say squeeze me?" and laughed. All I thought was if you lay one hand on me it will end up wrapped around your neck.
Anyway Charlie managed to make me feel very creeped out again. He came right up to my face (I do like my personal space y'know) and asked how long I was going to be here. That was it really. Later on he came in and touched his hand with mine to let me feel how cold he was. Seriously, what is the need? Please. Do not touch me. You are not my friend!

Thankfully the day went very, very fast and I found out that my suspicions of two of our staff members having an affair were in fact true and my thoughts were right all along. It was pretty obvious really. I don't blame the lady in question anyway, her husband is an annoying git and doesn't really seem to leave her alone. Sometimes, these things are almost allowed in certain situations. I certaintly don't think any less of my collegue, why should I? She's an amazing sales person and a nice person too.

Now I am sat on my sofa with chocolates, biscuits and rum and coke, waht more could I need? I plan to, instead of going out, get pissed on my own sofa in my mum and sisters company and have some much needed rest. Day off tomorrow and I cannot wait to relax. My sister and I played LBP pirates of the caribbean levels tonight. Was much fun, loving the water feature. Need to play with some more water based levels tomorrow I think. I won't start uni work until I have finished Currys work which will be after saturday now. This year has been the best of my life so far. I want to thank my friends especially for making this happen. I got closer to the minions (Martyn's changed my life forever I think!), I got my confidence back, I feel like a totally new person, a better person. I am so much more happier than I ever was, even though I tend to complain in my blogs! I got good A levels and worked very hard to get into a university I am throughly enjoying. I've made some amazing new friends, namely Ellie, Lewis, Matt and Rachel, thanks so much you guys can't wait to live with you next year! I would like to give special thanks to Alex who has done so much for me I couldn't even begin to list it here. You are my closest friend and I love you dearly. Thank you. And although there have been bad times, such as the loss of Stew due his own idiotticness (though I can't say I won't miss him as we were once so very close) there have been gains such as new minion Holly who makes me laugh so much. I can't wait to see everyone in Jan again.

So to my old friends, my new friends, my minion friends and my family. Thank you all for being my friends. I feel truelly honoured and very lucky and yes I realise this is getting cheesy now but if you can't say it at Christmas/new year when can you say it eh? (Anyone who gets the slight referance in there is awesome ;)).

To a new year of blogging! Thanks to all that read about my oh so amazing life! :P

Minxy xxxxxxxxxxx

Busy, busy, busy.

My God it was busy in the shop today. Working never ceases to anger me. Especially when a certain someone tells you he will be doing fuck all but playing games all day with friends. Bastard! But yes anyway, the shop went mental today. We concluded this was because no one realised we were open at the weekend and therefore decided to bombard us on a bank holiday because no one else has to work...grr. There was a funny guy who came in early in the morning with a Halo game, the latest one. He was complaining to Kelv that he'd brought this game 3 weeks ago, he wrapped it up for xmas and there was no game disc in the box when his brother opened it. But he had no proof of purpose and was in a foul mood. Unless he could prove it was from here we couldn't do anything for him. So, instead of being reasonable and thinking of some sort of compromise he stormed out of the shop, throwing the game box across the room! I thought it was hilarious! How old was he?! 10? No, he was well into his fortys, probably older I'd say. Now, okay someone probably did make a mistake with not putting the disc in but it was still entirely the customers fault. One, if you're buying something for a present you usually keep the receipt in case it is wrong or not what they wanted or they already have it. Two, if it was the last one off the shelf would you not watch to see if the disc was put in the box or even CHECK before you wrap it?! Idiot.

We broke our record for sales today, 18k! Not bad for our small little high street shop. One customer I served wanted two TVs, one big one small, a computer monitor, a wii remote (which we'd sold out of), a mouse and an SD card. Phew that was one big sale for me! Graham, our area manager (I met him a week ago in his pressed suit and blackberry, eugh) still rang up to complain because we weren't doing enough HERO (i.e we weren't selling enough extra guarantees). We were rammed with people at the time and no one wants to buy anything extra at this point in time. They don't usually, let alone in a recession! Sigh. We had to use our discount in order to sell some.

We worked an extra half an hour until the shop was dead once again. We then left. None of us had had time to have a lunch break so me and Kelv were starving. So Kelv treated me to a McDonalds on the way home but I owe him a Costa coffee. Fair enough!
10 until 5:30 tomorrow...GROAN. I should stop complaining but meh. I blame the hormones and constantly feeling tired.

Boxing day

I worked that day. I was not in a good mood about it as I was still knackered even after having xmas day off plus I was afraid I was going to miss family members who were coming round in the evening. Luckily, this was not the case. We did have some bitchy customers though. I messed up because I sold a camera on xmas eve without telling them they needed a memory card. To be honest, they moaned and pointed the finger at me (how rude!) but I couldn't care less and I blame their own stupidity. I can't remember to tell people every time, I was running around like a headless chicken that day. Your own fault if you want to buy a camera on xmas eve, fools.

Kelv needed to leave an hour early so it wasn't too bad when I got home. My nan, grandad, aunt and uncle were there so I told them about my day. We had a partically long conversation about parents and grandparents who are so ignorant about gaming. We always get a parent coming in and buying 16s or 18s for their 10 year old sons. It's ridiculous. You wouldn't buy an 18 rated film for a kid right?! But that day we had a partically bad case when a boy tried to buy MW2 on xbox when Kelv refused him because he wasn't old enough. His mum, sounding quite cross, stormed over and said "Nope but I can buy it for him!". Kelv asked if she was sure because it's an 18 and very violent. She did not give a toss. And you wonder how these kids get online and annoy everyone? Well there's your answer. It was the most stupid thing I'd ever seen. All it is is ignorance. The parents don't take an interest in their kids interests so they just willingly buy what they want because it will "keep them quiet". Oh sigh. I giggled today about someone who brought Assaisins Creed for their 10 year old to Kim and Kelv. "I wonder if he knows that game has an interactive love scene in?". Funny times.

Anyway we had LOADS of party food to eat. My mum and sister made a fantastic gingerbread house and some reindeer cupcakes. Nom nom. Later on my cousins Claire and Ian came round along with Claire's boyfriend, Jason and their daughter Emma and baby Jamie. Jamie is very, very cute. My mum had brought him a book for xmas that made animal noises. He seemed to LOVE pressing the cat button! Probably because he has a cat at home! Well, half cat, half wild animal, literally! Ian had a go in my gaming chair and Uncharted 2 he seemed to like it. Dad is showing it off not me! He gets so proud of these things. I can tell he wants one for himself. Everyone stayed for a bit, the men were in the gaming room and the women were playing with the baby. Typical! Well I switched between rooms to be honest. But seeing Jamie just made me really want to see Martyn's Wren for some reason! Anyway it was quite funny when they all left because Jason went round with the baby and said "Who wants to kiss my baby?" so we...all did! Bless. And no, I don't want one, at least not for a very long time!

My auntie, uncle and grandparents stayed for a bit longer. We all played a Buzz quiz which was fun, I of course won. I'm too quick for anyone else! All in all, it was a good evening and it was surprisingly nice to see my cousins. Jason and Ian are quite cool I suppose. They are both game designers and Ian looks like a 6ft 3" Jesus and no, I'm not kidding he actually does! He gets called the Wizard at work...and you wonder why my family is odd! Well okay...you wonder why I'm odd!!! It's obviously in the genes somewhere...
Now I'm working everyday until friday then it's one more saturday of work and I'm done. I cannot wait to finish I am knackered from work and fed up of the customers. The money will hopefully be worth it. It had better be. Then I'll have to get on with Uni work, hand that in by the 14th and then I shall do nothing but game!

Merry Christmas!

Working xmas eve was not fun. I was an idiot and woke up an hour early for work (5:30) without even realising it until it was too late so that did not do my mentality any good. I had also been dreaming about Currys and I'm sure that cannot be good for me...
Work went pretty fast though, thank God. It was busy almost all day but I still did not have the time not patience for quips about getting mistletoe from Yvette's husband and the fact he was going to chase me out the back. Why oh why do I attract the weirdos...

After work I had a game of Resi 5 with Alex, we tried to do some professional but I was epically failing. I was tired and Resi was just stressing out even more. I felt like crying. In fact I did cry afterwards. Not because I lost or anything but because I was so very tired. I'd had about 5 hours sleep and was fed up with work. It's xmas eve. I want to relax. I didn't even feel Christmasy. I feel it less and less every year I swear. I wish I didn't. I really don't know why I feel like this. But, however I may feel, I still love Christmas.

At least I got a decent nights sleep last night but I still feel knackered and I haven't done much today! My sister woke us all up at 9am so I got up, grabbed my stocking which was lying in the hallway as always next to Chester (a big soft toy polar bear) and went into my mum and dads room. In typical tradition we sat and unwrapped the presents in the stockings together. I think one of my favourite little gifts was another voodoo keyring doll to go to my collection, a little vampire. Very cool. My sister got a handmade sackboy made by my mum! It's so cute I shall have to post a comparison picture at some point!

So we went downstairs, my dad walked the dog and Sami made me and mum tea and we all waited in our PJs for dad to return. When he did the gifts were assorted into little piles. I had three presents which were some earrings with smiley faces on from my sister, a bottle of Baileys from mum and dad and a really pretty, sexy set of underwear from my mum. Gifts I really was not expecting but very nice indeed. My sister got a pink DS lite so I knew I was going to get a big present too, my dad made hints...well I say hints but he basically said when he was driving me home from uni "You're going to LOVE your xmas presents!". So when it came round to opening my gift my dad went upstairs and got down a huge box. I'm not even kidding it was fucking massive! I had no idea what it could be it was the size of a huge TV or something! Well...I opened it and it was something I would have never expected. A gaming chair! It's epic! It has speakers just where you put your head and it is SO comfy (which is why my mum wanted to get me a chair of some kind). You can plug it straight into the PS3 and the sound comes out of the chairs speakers. It's got great bass and it really immerses you in the game, so much so it kinda blocks out any other background noise haha! You can also plug an MP3 player in and just lie back (and rock) on the leather chair and relax. I heart it! But I am slightly afraid the boys at uni will be stealing it all the time! Hehe.

After all the gifts being given out we had some toast to eat and all got washed and dressed before my nan and grandad came round for lunch. My dad wanted me to show him Fallout 3 and we had a couple of fights on Tekken 6 which was good fun. When my grandparents came round it was nice because I hadn't seen them for three months and they asked me all about uni. Xmas lunch was yummy as usual and we had all the trimmings, though I pass on sproats. When we were full we went and sat and watched some TV. Happy Feet was on which I'd never seen and that was quite a good film though I didn't get to see the end. Nan and grandad left and were left to watch Doctor who and the like. Doctor who was a bit mad but good I thought. I mean, how can I not love it?! I still don't want Tennnant to leave though. Ahh well.

So now I'm sat here, very tired but content. Although I really, really do not want to work tomorrow. I'm so tired, need more sleep! I hope I get another day off soon. I cannot take much more and tomorrow will be dreadful because it will be so busy and everyone will be complaining and returning stuff "You ruined my kids xmas etc..." Sigh.

Some good luck at last

Today I had to get up pretty early and I hadn't slept too well but somehow I felt more awake than usual. The shop was dead again. Opening early really is pointless but we have no choice. I was lucky today though. It started to snow very heavily and Kelv was so worried about being snowed in that we left early at abiut 12:30! I'm so glad we did get to leave because the day was going so slowly. Plus it gave me a chance to get on with some uni work and to not be too tired to play PS3.

I finally had a go on Modern Warfare 2 online today! I'm only rank 8 so far and the online was a bit laggy but it was good fun. Some lad who works behind a bar at a club my dad played for is asking after me. He wants to kick my arse online apparently. We shall see Luke, we shall see...

After dinner I went on Playstation Home as there was a discussion on the group to have a group photo together. And we did! It was a bit of a fail especially as some annoying people were purposefully trying to get in the way and one bloke thought it would be funny (as I was on the floor) to try and position himself so it looked like I was giving him a blow job. Well, it IS the only way he's going to get one so aww bless! Sigh.

After the fail of Home we game launched from there into Modern Warfare 2. The party system sort of failed but ahh well. We got our headsets on and it was me and guys playing a fair few games together. It was great fun. It's so good to be playing games with my friends again. I really hope an MGO game can get sorted soon. I haven't played it for 3 months!

I have to be ready to leave for work by 7:30 tomorrow but there is a small chance I'll get a phone call telling me I can't go in because of the snow. A part of me would like this phone call as it would mean I could go back to bed and then play Resi 5 all day with Alex. But the other part of me would at least go to work for a bit so I'd still get paid! Hmm. We shall see.

Booooring

Today at work it was deathly quiet. So quiet they sent Ray home at 12 and Liam home at 1. We were all bored out of our heads. Our sales were down by 50% compared to last year and it seems to be the same all across the region for the week. We're opening early tomorrow and I pray that it's for a good reason. I pray that it's not as dead as it was today.

I forgot to tell you about a funny customer that came in yesterday. I spoke to him for ages about TVs and blu rays. He was a bit annoying to say the least but it gave me something to do for 10 minutes. He started complaining about how long digi boxes take ages to load up and how they should state in the instructions that they take a while to start up. Sigh. Someone in impatient! Anyway he compared this to not being told you have to pull the pin out of a grenade for it to work. Erm okay... He then turned to me and asked me if I knew that. Oh dear...if only you knew, if only you knew...

It's also very funny when customers tell you about a better deal in another shop because we actually don't care. We're not allowed to discount. So, if it's better in another shop, go and buy it from there. Sheesh.

On better news, Rage against the machine got xmas number 1! I'm so happy. It shows campaigning does work and that xfactor doesn't always have to win!

Currently watching: Top gear

First day back at work

I went back to work at Currys today for the xmas period due to request of my ex collegues which is lovely to know and of course, I really need the money. But there are massive downsides. I'm working everyday for just under 2 weeks except xmas day and new years day. The most annoying part is I had a text from Marnie this morning, everyone is going out clubbing whether I can or not. Great. So everyone has made the decision without asking if I'm free. This means I can't go out because I'll be working early the next day. Some days I'll be at work for 9 hours. It's going to kill me. Even today my back was killing me because I am not used to standing up for long periods of time anymore. Plus today, even though it's the last saturday before xmas, was very quiet. The day dragged on for everyone. It's not a good sign.

But hey now I can tell you the funny things that happen at Currys! Yeah...don't expect too much from me. It was nice to know I'm not completly useless and that my old collegues actually asked for me back for the xmas period. It's always nice to be wanted. I was worried today that I would have forgotten everything and that I would be useless but because I'm now so confident in myself, it was fine and not hard at all. Phew. I've a bit of a lie in tomorrow because sunday is a short working day but some days, monday a least, I'll have to leave for work at quarter past 7 which means getting up at at least quarter to 7. SIGH. Boxing day will be a long day though. I HATE WORKING BOXING DAY. :'(

Coming home

I woke up at 10 this morning to get the rest of my stuff ready before my dad came. Lewis came round to hang out with me and Ellie and because he was helping Ellie take her things to the station. Alex couldn't pick up his coat yesterday so Lewis kindly looked after his coat for me for Alex to pick up later. My dad was a little later than expected so Ellie and Lewis left the flat before me. We had hugs goodbye and I think everyone was a bit sad to be leaving. Matt had already been long gone by this time and Rach wasn't leaving until sunday. And so I was left by myself until dad arrived.

I didn't have to wait long though. He helped me pack all my rubbish into the car. Those Mazdas really are Tardis's! It took a while but soon it was all done and we were off. We had loads to talk about and I forced my dad to listen to my new Robbie Willaims CD. We stopped half way for a sandwich at a service station as we were both very hungry. And sooner than I knew, we were home. It was weird. It still is weird. The house seems small. Probably because I live in somewhere where everything is huge. Ollie looked different too but it's so good to see him. It just feels strange being here after 3 months of well...not being here! I'm sure I will get used to it soon though and of course, it's lovely to be home.

I played some Resi 5 with Alex this evening and got a couple more trophies for him. He's almost caught up with me so we can get the platinum together because we know it would be freaking awesome if we did.

I'm really not looking forward to walk tomorrow, I won't know anything! I might be a little bit useless! But it will be nice to see all my old work mates and tell them all about uni. Though I might disappoint them as I'm not very studenty! With my lack of clubbing and getting drunk, etc. But hey, it's not about impressing people. Hmm 9 until 5:30...groan.

The last few days!

And so going home time and xmas is fast approaching. Yesterday I got up early to go to a couple of creative writing lectures (unlike someone!!!). It was a fun lecture because Adam was teaching, it will be great to have him as a tutor next term but I will greatly miss Laura. Anyway, once those were over with I walked home in the snow! Yes it was snowing! Ellie said it was going to and she was right! Snow, pizza hut and secret Santa...I knew today was going to be good.

Although when I got back to my flat I was rather hoping to chill out a bit before anyone came round. Unfortunately, Matt was waiting by my front door like an excited puppy because his paper mario had eventually arrived. Now I must admit, this did piss me off a little bit. You see the problem is I love, love, love people coming round but I would like to be asked first. So yes, I may have come across a bit cold with Matt because of this mood but ah well. I went and had a shower and left him to get on with whatever he wanted to do. I then sat at my computer bored until Lewis woke up and came round. I'd wrapped all my presents by then so I'm glad that's now out the way and I don't have to hide anything from dad on Friday!

I got a call from Alex that evening which made me feel a lot better. The problem is with me is that every so often I need reassurance that everything is okay and going to be okay. It's hard but I'll work around it, I always do.

Later on when we were all ravenous, Rachel came round and we headed off to pizza hut, carrying the presents and crackers. Pizza hut was practically empty so we sat down and ordered. I had a medium barbecue deluxe which I only just managed to eat. Of course the two boys were foolish and had larges. Lewis was a bit more sensible. He ate half then saved the rest for food tomorrow. Matt however tried to eat it all as well as having garlic bread and cheesy bites on his pizza! I think he must have regret it. Men, eh? Hehe. Whilst waiting for our pizzas I got all the presents out and they were distributed to whom they were labelled to. I got some "fucking Lego" (see arby and the chief for reference)which was star wars themed from Lewis. Pretty sweet! Matt got a pacman heat changing mug and a fireman calender (lol!) from Ellie. I got Ellie a mug which she really seemed to like so I was so relieved. Rachel got a Simon's cat book (look it up on youtube, very funny). And Lewis got a dead Fred which is basically a pen holder but it makes it look like you've stabbed poor Fred. I think all in all everyone was happy and secret Santa was a success! Bring on next year!

We all waddled home after having filled ourselves with pizza and collapsed in my room. Matt played super paper mario whilst me and Lewis watched some funny videos online and Ellie and Rachel chatted away. Rach, Ellie and Lewis were trying to convince me to go to Oceana but I explained although I really wanted to, I was in all day on Wednesdays and can't really stay up that late. I didn't really feel up to it either. However I did change my mind and just though "fuck it" so we all got dressed up apart from Matt who decided he'd just stay in my room. Again, I wasn't asked. So us 4 headed out with Lewis feeling like a bit of a pimp!

When we got to Oceana the queue was huge. It was a 2 hour long queue. We waited, and waited and waited for an hour and a half. By this point me and Rachel were kind of fed up and considering going back. In the end we left Lewis and Ellie together by themselves. I wouldn't have minded waiting if it wasn't so damn cold but my toes felt like they were going to fall off and they'd been feeling like that for quite some time. So me and Rach left the queue at about 12:30. We walked around to see if anywhere else was open but no where was so we decided just to head home and get warm in our beds. I said goodbye to Rach and knocked on the door so Matt could let me in. Thankfully he hadn't fallen asleep and he was playing paper mario again. I announced I was going to bed so he left and I went straight to bed.

This morning I woke up to my alarm at 8 but I was still tired even though I hadn't got to bed that late. So I decided fuck it, I really don't want to get up in the cold and listen to Brian for an hour. Or go to boring print journalism for 2 hours. So I thought I'd skip over those two lessons. Plus Alex is meant to picking up his jacket he left here the other day some time this morning. Though Ellie is hanging onto it for me just in case he comes later so he can pick it up from her as she'll be here all day. I have my first lesson at 1 so I'm only in for 4 hours today thanks to my own choice. Well, to be honest it's the last week of term and people have stopped turning up to lessons anyway so I doubt I couldn't possibly miss anything important. And anything I've missed from print journalism I'll hear in my seminar with the teacher anyway! I'm not looking forward to tonight though, I have so much washing up to do which must be done before I leave. I also need to pack and take out the rubbish. Sigh. But hopefully we'll all go out for a last quiet drink tonight at a bar or pub. Should be good.

Happiness/sadness

I don't know why we can never be purely happy. Well I never seem to be anyway. Sure, 90% of the time I'm happy and cheerful and not at all upset or sad but I guess that's because I push problems to the back of my head. When these worries finally come out, it can almost ruin a day of happiness. I guess I just worry if, ultimatly, I'm going to be chosen and whether all this investment of feeling is going to be worth it.

It's odd. I'm not sure why I feel like this. It seems to come and go every so often, this feeling. I guess I'm worried. And also, I'm going home soon, which makes me very happy but at the same time it makes me realise I'm going to miss people a lot over xmas. Hopefully Jen's thingy in January will be good and I'll get to see the minion again, which always cheers me up. It sounds like everyone is going to be able to make it, which makes me happy.

I have an exam today and I'm not in the mood for it. It's worth 35% of our overall mark which is just a little bit scary. It should be easy. We have about an hour to write a news story and half an hour to do some editing (or subbing as it's called in the industry). But still, it is scaring me ever so slightly. I suppose I had best leave my blog at this and go and get ready. I need to be in lesson before 1 because he's starting the exam then and I don't want to be behind.

Currently listening to: Evanescence- Good enough
"It's been such a long time coming but I feel good. But I'm still waiting for the rain, to fall, pouring life down on me. 'Cause I can't hold on to anything this good. Am I good enough, for you to love me too?"

Xmas shopping, done!

Yesterday, not too long after I wrote the blog, Matt got up. I was checking out the new, free, christmasy stuff in Home when he came round. We left for town soon after, I assumed Lewis was still sleeping. Me and Matt got all, if not most, of our shopping done which is great. I'm actually organised this year which makes a change! Even my mum was amazed. Anyway, one particular incident happened which was rather funny but also annoying indeed.

I saw some chocolates in BHS which were perfect for my dad so I went to buy them. The girl on my till was pretty young, my age if not younger. When she scanned my chocolates she asked if I was 16, I wasn't aware that there was liquor in the chocolates. I said yes and that I was 19 (almost said 18). She asked for ID and I thought she had to be kinding me. The only form of ID I had was an NUS card which SHOULD be acceptable ID and I'm annoyed that it isn't. It has my age on the front and a picture on the back, what more proof do you need? She took my card, unsure she was able to accept it and asked another staff member whether she could. I stood there explaining to her I was 19 and went to uni! She smiled at me, semi-embarassed, probably more so than me actually. I wasn't embrassed, just insulted. It's not nice for people to think you look 15! Anyway, she accepted it and I paid for my chocolates and got out of there. Matt thought it was hilarious of course, and so did I in a ridiculous sort of way. I found my mums perfect gift too so I was happy with that as I was struggling.

When I got the chocolates and stuff home, I checked the contents for alcohol content. THERE WAS NO ALCOHOL IN THEM! WTF. It made me even MORE annoyed. How could they have idiots like that working there?! Ahh well, she was young and I've probably been just as stupid as her, I probably still will be useless at work, so in a way, I forgive her. It did make it all the more funny though. When my mum rang up I told her the story, she thought it was ridiculous too. I didn't have a long conversation with my parents. Turns out my dad is coming on friday at 11:30am which is good. I want to get home asap but I'm not looking foward at trying to fit stuff in the car!

Driving home for christmas

This weekend has been a good one. Of course, I have got no work done but it's been fun. Matt and Lewis both slept over on friday night, we were up until 4 just lying down talking and even having a few confessions! Which meant we ended up waking up at 1pm the next day! Oops! So I forced the boys up and later on that day we went shopping for a bit. I got my friends presents all done but I still can't find my mum anything and I still need to pick up my bank card so I need to shopping today. However, I can't get in contact with Matt who was supposed to go with me! Sigh. Still, it's still early.

Last night was another late night so it's not surprising I haven't heard from Lewis or Matt yet, they seem to be useless at getting up. My room is freezing at the moment for some unknown reason. The radiator is on at full blast, no windows are open, yet I'm freezing?! What the fudge. So I've decided to sit here and wait until Matt texts me or something so we can go out. I don't particularly want to go out by myself for some odd reason. I just get lonely easily I guess. Plus Matt might be a bit annoyed with me if I go without him because he wants to find this place he's got to give blood next week. So I best hang on for a bit.

Only a short blog really, not sure what else to write about. I just really, really can't wait to go home. I will miss people, a hell of a lot but I also miss my parents and Christmas is the best time of year. I love it. Can't wait for our family to be re-united at last! Plus I love, love giving gifts (as well as receiving of course!). My mum and dad tried to convince me to not buy them anything this year but fuck off! I can't just accept gifts without giving anything back! I enjoy giving and I think I defiantly owe it to my parents, the people helping me through uni and who've bathed and clothed me for years. I think it would be damn rude not to. I'm not THAT poor you know. Plus, I'll be working like a fucking dog over xmas anyway so that better give me enough money.

Anyway, enough talk about giving and recieving. I'm off to play Tekken 6.
Currently listening to: Lady Gaga-The fame
"Fame. I'm doing it for the fame because we wanna live the life of the rich and famous."

Relax

Last night was another, very, very strange night involving Lewis and Ellie! I mean, not much happened I suppose, just more odd conversations-fisting anyone? And Lewis throwing Ellie's shoe out the window so it got stuck in the gutter. The solution? Taping the broom and mop together of course...Ellie has photographic evidence of some of this! Crazy times.

Well I went to bed about 2am but didn't get up too late the next morning. I was already semi-awake but what really forced me out of bed was Alex. He rang and started going on about a worry monster? A monster that would eat all my worries. Cute. Gotta love that guy, as Lewis said today "That man deserves a thousand high fives".
Print Journalism was canceled AGAIN, we're about 3 weeks behind work wise, so I decided not to go to Brian's boring 9am lecture and to instead catch up on some much needed sleep.
STOP. PIZZA TIME.
Sorry about that short interlude, was ravenously hungry! Anywhere, where was I...ahh yes so I skipped one lesson, the other was canceled so I only had to be at Uni for 1pm. I text Matt just before I left because weirdly enough, he wasn't on facebook or msn as he usually is. You see, we do the same part of the course so we always walk together and then sit together. I got no reply from him and I was going to be late so I just left.

I heard nothing until the end of the lesson, he'd over-slept. I'm starting to wonder why he's so tired recently. All he seems to do is sleep and eat. Seriously. He'll come round mine and because my bed is "so comfy" he'll fall asleep way too easily! It's crazy. He clearly needs more sleep at night and less during the day...sigh. Anyway, the lesson was about poetry which I usually hate but Meg made it fun and I rather enjoyed the lesson. I'm dreading the homework, I have to write a couple of poems and one of them has to start "Something I shouldn't tell you..." oh dear! Lewis suggested I do a humorous one in which the narrator is secretly a man! Haha! I'm not too good at humorous writing though, even if people say I'm funny. I think they mean funny in the head rather than with words.

I walked to my next lesson, a boring seminar which I hated and I was dreading as Beth would have looked at and marked the outline of what my feature is going to be about. I'm rather afraid she'll hate it and that I don't have a good enough sources. Well how am I going to get interviews from Infinity Ward eh?! Anyways...I got there, waited, I was a little early but I was the only person waiting for lesson. I then spotted a note on the door, saying it was canceled. Win. As I started leaving the uni, I put my phone onto loud, like I always do when leaving. Lewis had called so I text him back to let him know I was free. He rung me back. My metal gear theme tune ring tone seemed to alert (haha, get it?) some man as I was walking outside. Maybe he thought he'd been spotted. Lewis met me on my way walking home and said he'd forgotten his hard drive and left it in my room. I knew there would be a reason why he wanted me, lucky for him my lesson was canceled then. We got back to mine and he kept me company by playing Unreal Tournament 3 before I had to go back to Uni for and hour and he had to finish off editing his film.

Well I did go back to uni, but the lesson was cut short, another win as I was so hungry. People have had to read out their 750 word pieces out each week but 2 of the people reading weren't here, meaning the lesson only lasted half an hour. It's funny, I was looking through the short stories and monologues written and I found my neighbours work, Jon. He'd written something very personal, about him being too much of a party animal, drinking and smoking too much, the time he started vomiting blood (he told me of this, which is why I know it's true) and how really, he didn't know what to do with his life or university for that matter. I found it rather sad. He spoke of how he just follows the crowd and therefore ends up blowing loads of money, sure it's made him more self confident but he's paying a big price for it. I liked his piece. It was honest. I don't even know why he never turns up to lessons. he was at the creative writing lesson for an hour then left, then didn't turn up to this seminar. When I walked home, I saw him standing outside C block, smoking as usual but this time he was by himself. Part of me feels sorry for him, it seems he's not as happy as he always seems to be.

So I'm sat here, alone, it's a first for me, usually people are round here by now but Lewis is probably working and I haven't heard from Matt all day, he's probably sleeping again. It's a real shame Alex couldn't come round tonight, I could have done with the company.

Currently listening to: Tom Jones-It's not unusual
"If I ever find that you've changed at any time, it's not unusual to find out I'm in love with you"

In which I become a film star

Well that may be over-exaggerating it by a very large amount but yesterday evening I was the protagonist in Lewis' short film. It involved a bed and some hands and no it's not what you think! Basically, I was someone who couldn't sleep (thus I had to be in my PJ's) because of my over-active imagination. Every time I went to sleep I had these nightmares which involved something to come and get me, hands to be precise.

So Lewis got into director mode and bossed me, Ellie and Matt around for a while. I'm not that confident in front of the camera so I was a little scared because I'd never really done proper acting before and you know how much I laugh, I didn't think I'd be able to keep a straight face but I think I managed it rather well. So I had to get into bed, we used Ellie's bed sheets because mine weren't feminine enough!!! Matt was under the bed and Ellie was in my wardrobe so they could reach out their hands towards me without actually grabbing me. In the mean time, I had to "writhe" on the bed, like I was having a bad dream then sit up right suddenly and gasp loudly. Was very odd but I hope it all comes out okay for him because he was very grateful that I helped him out. Plus he was so focused last night, he said in his blog it took his mind off his situation at the moment which is really good, I understand how hard it is to put those sort of things to the back of your mind.

After all, I've been really worrying about something that is months away. It's silly but all I can see is me breaking down at some point which I do not want. But hey, things may change before then but I seriously doubt it. I have no idea when things will change. I hate having this doubt, it's a constant worry that I'm just going to be left behind and forgotten about. I really can't get it off my mind, I am paranoid. Sigh. Filming took this all of my mind for a while though. Which was good.

I woke up this morning and it was pitch black in my room still so I assumed it was still early right? Well I got a knock on my door and I assumed it would be the cleaning lady complaining about something. But no, it was Ellie. I was briefly blinded by the light before taking a letter off her which was a £20 cheque from doing my gaming survey! Get in! I'd completely forgot about that, I'm so glad I did it now. Easiest £20 of my life, well actually, I did do another survey before for £20 cash when I was 15 pretending to be 16, ha! Ellie told me the time, it was 10 minutes before I had to leave to walk to my next lecture!!!! FUUUU

I got there on time though, doesn't take me 5 minutes to get ready really and I munched a quick banana before I left so my stomach didn't complain through those 2 hours. We had a fire alarm that lesson. Being evacuated out of a huge 5 storey building when you're on the 4th floor is not fun. The sheer amount of people walking down the same outside fire exit stairs. I thought it was never going to end! I stuck with a girl who was in my class, we exchanged a few words and she seems like a nice person after all. We didn't have to wait too long to go back in but it felt like an age. It was just a drill as we all suspected but it was rather funny that I seemed to be the first person to hear the damn alarm going off. The teacher just ignored it until someone made him evacuate us. Ahh lecturers, gotta love them.

Just a small one...

Last night me and Lewis stayed up until about 4am just playing Resi 5, LBP and god knows what else, it's all a bit of a tired blur. Lewis stayed over that night because he wanted to get up at 7am to play animal crossing, beating Matt to it (don't ask!!!). So yes I was awoken by Lewis getting up at 7 to play animal crossing but I fell asleep pretty quick and next thing I knew I was waking up at 11am and he'd left. I then had a text from matt asking if we were going shopping now. I told him to give me half an hour as I hadn't got up yet. I got up and was about to get ready when the door buzzed, it was Rachel with her boyfriend Ian. I was kinda just stood there in my dressing gown so I let them into my kitchen whilst I went and got dressed.

I had breakfast as quick as possible as I didn't want to keep Rach and Ian waiting too long. As soon as I was finished we went and got Matt and off we went to Asda. Very cheap shop this week, all was good.

My day sort of ending up changing plan so Lewis came round and we played some games together for the rest of the day.

In absolutly excellent news, Matt (minion Matt) is engaged!!!! I'm so, so happy for them! Minion stag do? I think so! Can't wait :D Happy times

SIGH

Thursday was a horrible day. I was tired, falling asleep through my morning lectures and stressed out. We had our Journalism press conferance on the morning for a first lesson. I took as many notes as I could but it was hard. The story was hardly a story at all, an old lady had gone missing, it wasn't a crime she'd just wondered off. Great. I had uni all day until 5. I came home to Lewis and Matt sat in my flat watching Russell Howard on Iplayer. I watched that as I ate my soup and then announced I was off back to uni. It was freezing cold, I really did not want to leave my warm flat for that. But I knew I had to. Luckily there were a couple of computers upstairs free. If not I may have cried. When I was sat there doing my work, I looked around to see what other people were doing. The amount of fucking people on Facebook I swear!!!! It really pissed me off because there is a huge shortage of computers, you can look at facebook at home or bring in your own fucking laptop to look at it. How are people meant to print out their work if your browsing a social networking site. Some people are so inconsiderate. I've never even been on facebook whilst in the University! What's the point?!

Anyway, I did the story okay, printed it, posted into the essay box (why does the social science offices have to be on the third floor?!) and went home. I got home completly knackered and we had to get ready for Rachels' birthday. We prepared a cake for her that Matt had kindly brought, it was yummy. She came round and we sung her happy birthday and gave her her present, she loved it all. I'm glad she had a nice birthday, she's going to some kinky club tonight...can't wait to ask what it's like on sunday!

Matt took Rach to the cinema because he said he would but the rest of us stayed here because we'd seen Harry Brown and we were all so knackered, well me and Ellie were.
We spent the evening chatting and played Resi 5 mercenaries.

Today I woke up to someone calling me, it was obviously a buisness because of the number but as soon as I answered they hung up. I waited to see if they would call back but they didn't so I went to sleep. A little later they phoned again. It was Lloyds bank. Some cunt had attempted to hire a car for £1,700 and they were asking me if I'd made that transaction. I can't even drive! So I waited on hold for ages to get through to speak to someone but I had waited so long Lloyds made me hang up. They said someone would call me back but they never did. Great. I tried to ring them later on but again they were far too busy. I needed to get this sorted as I was very worried so I headed down to town with Lewis and Matt because Lewis needed something anyway. We called into the bank and basically they've canceled my card just to be safe which is obviously a good thing but now I have to wait until saturday for a new card and I desperatly need to buy some gifts online! ARGH! So I've asked my mum to help me out with that...dear oh dear. Things could not really get worse. Especially as I recently had bank worries! SIGH.

Lewis ended up buying Oblivian which is crazy hard, harder than Fallout 3! And we spent the entire way home talking about games as usual. We are too cool. So yeah, a pretty crappy day I just pray my mum can help me out. Oh and I got my birthday present from Bex, the new Robbie Williams album. I fucking heart it.

Currently listening to: Nightwish-Where were you last night?
"I'm here all alone, still I wait by the phone, the hours go by, what else could I do but to cry?"

Prepare for the future

Last night Matt and Lewis left early which was much to my surprise, I didn't really mind though because I had a book to finish. Lewis couldn't get to sleep though so he came back round after Matt had left. I sat and read my book whilst half watching him play Portal. He completed it that night! He was already most of the way through but still he did well. He loved the end boss because he wasn't expecting one as well as the end credits. They are the best credits ever.

I started the day off sleepily, almost falling asleep through some of my lectures. You see, if I'm actually being engauged in the lesson, I'm fine but if I have to sit there and listen...I fall asleep so to speak. After my 3 hours of lectures I rushed home to see if my package was there. I peeked through the window to see if my room name was written on the little parcel board and it was, yay! I asked for my parcel and the guy groaned, got off his arse and thumped my parcel onto the table like it was really heavy or something. Actually, it was incrediably light. Anyway I signed for it and as I was doing so, a lady there commented on how many parcels there were recently. Which is a stupid remark to make because it is christmas! People are probably ordering lots of stuff or getting sent things. I said I'd won mine in a competition and they asked about what I'd won. When I explained this huge box was for a video game, I saw why they may have been a little confused!

Anyway, I left and rushed upstairs to quickly open my parcel and have lunch in the 50 minutes break I had. I opened the parcel with my pathetic scissors with some differculty and just ended ripping the rest of it open with my hands. There it was, a little tin luch box with goodies inside! I love my little pip boy bobble head, he is so cute/creepy. I had no time to even put the disk in so I quickly nommed some toasted tea cakes and talked to Rach quick on msn then left to go back to uni.

The hour I had to endure of listening to a lady who'd basically been very lucky in her career of Journalism could not have gone any quicker. I was falling asleep by the end of it and just wanted her to stop talking. It finished. I rushed home, noticing the bright and nice sky and had turned to grey nad rainy...great. I noticed I had a call from Lewis so I informed him of what I was doing and as I was walking back, getting wet and cold, he called me again to say he'd come over to watch me play Fallout 3. I was just installing a very quick update when he eventually came round. Fallout seems to be a tricky game but I'm getting used to it and I love the whole free-roaming aspect of it. I can see it being pretty addictive. I like it already.

So yes, that's how I've pretty much spent my afternoon. Tomorrow is going to be the worst day ever and I know I always say that for thursdays but they really are depressing trust me. I have a press conferance in the morning for Journalism and then I'm at uni all day until 5. Then I have to go home and have something to eat and then GO BACK to uni to write an article on the press conferance to hand in before 11 the next day!!!! Such a huge piss take. Do not want :(

The countdown begins!

Huzzah! It is the 1st of December today! Which means only 18 days until my father picks me up in his Mazda Mx5 and we go home! Of course, I will miss my uni friends and seeing Alex as often as I do now but I cannot wait to see my friends back home and my family. I especially miss my dog, as sad as it sounds. Fallout 3 should be coming tomorrow too hopefully! It will be a struggle to do my work that day...

Today I had a late-ish Journalism seminar, thank God because I needed the lie in. It was a good lesson, I got to write a news story on Stephen Fry (whom I adore) and mine was good so it got read out in class! Hurray! I actually feel as if my news writing skills are getting somewhere. Give me the info, I can write it. It just becomes a lot more tricky when you have to find stories by yourself of course.

Now I need to read the second half of a novel called "Loitering with intent" for tomorrow morning. It is a good book actually! I am enjoying it more than I thought I would, love the main character, she's having an affair with her friends husband but shakes it off as if it's nothing. It then turns out this man is cheating on both of them and he is actually gay! A funny read indeed. I like the main character, she is ballsy.

A short blog today but not much to write about. Oh, my secret santa present arrived as did my sisters present, haven't looked at them yet, hope they're okay.