Monday 22 February 2010

Gaps

I'm in a bit of a "work gap" at the moment. It's annoying, university. You have points where you have absolutly nothing to do and you can do whatever you like and everything is A-ok. But then, suddenly, all your works comes flying at you all at once and you never see it coming. That is life I suppose. You never have one problem at a time, in fact, they always seem to come in threes.

Friends. I worry about them sometimes. One friend recently told me she's seeing an older man (16 years older!) for "fun" (sex then) and she was a bit worried he wants a full on relationship (she doesn't). This persons actions is just making me think less and less of her as a person. She has always seemed to have problems of some kind but I have stopped feeling sorry for her, instead I pitty her. I really hope she realises what a fool she's being. She deserves better yet she never strives to get it. Maybe she doesn't want better. I don't know. I guess I should stop worrying and just let people fuck up their lives. Sigh.

Tonight I played some Borderlands with Lee Groom and Bossman. It was good fun but I was a bit too high a level! Ahh well, we had some laughs, especially with driving around and mounting each others cars, giggles. New DLC is supposed to come out this thursday. It's going to be a tenner I reckon. The update will be huge, the download will be twice the size of the zombie island so that will take AGES to download then! Sigh. Will have to leave it on whilst I'm at a lecture or something! Can't wait but damn all this expense! Going to pre-order Resi 5 gold soon too for £25. It's a good price and all but still. I am spending too much money recently. Need to try and cut down or at least get a job. Help!

Saturday 20 February 2010

Bayonetta


I am very, very sorry I have not been writing a blog lately. God knows why I am apologising but I do wish to keep this up and it is good to see people still read my blog. Though Alex hasn't for an age because his good phone broke. Ahh well. Too many funny things have happened recently to put them all here so I shall write about Bayonetta, which I completed in under 24 hours...

Okay, so I was playing it on easy, but a friend told me not to play it on normal the first time round as it was very hard. I took their advice and I'm glad I did as I will explain later.
Bayonetta was originally a game I had no interest in. I saw the trailers for it and basically thought "wtf this is just over the top sexual crap". I thought it would only appeal to sad old men who needed a slutty witch to excite them. But, when the demo came out I actually loved it. I think it was the combat that really captured my heart and now I have the full game, I can see the rest of the games up points.

The only real word to describe this game is "epic". You start off the game on a falling clock, fighting off angel after angel. It's beautiful and a fantastic way to throw the player straight into the action. My friend Matt was watching me the entire time and I think he never managed to lift his jaw up from the floor. It really is one of those games.

The humour in it is fantastic. You cringe, you have your head in your hands during most of the over-sexual cutscenes or torture attacks but ultimatly you are left in stitches. It's incrediably cheesy but so, so funny. A friend described it as "softcore porn" and I think we can all agree with that statement!

Bayonetta as a character is basically a kinky, British domonatrix. Is this what the Japanese really think of us British women? Interesting...anyway, the voice of Bayonetta is brilliant, I love the fact she has a very British accent. It makes a change for video games characters to be British without constantly drinking tea or complaining about the weather. Yes, her anatomy is a bit wrong but she IS a witch so her height and amazing legs can be sort of explained. But who honestly cares really? Not me.

Easy mode basically means, you have a big health bar and you deal a lot more damage to your enimies. When it's normal mode however, you start with a small health bar and have to collect 4 pieces of hearts to increase your health bar slightly. Your attacks are also very weak in comparison to easy mode. Be prepared to die alot. The secret to succeeding is dodging, that is made clear but it's not as easy as you would expect.

Now the niggly bits which could improve the game.
The camera. Even at the best of times the action is intence that you don't know what's going on. And it doesn't help when you have an awkward moving camera that won't point in the direction you want it to. Even when you do turn it, it turns very slowly.
Make it a *bit* easier. If it's this hard on normal, I hate to think what hard is like. I guess the Devil May Cry series is similar in the fact they make it rock-hard but just a tiny, weeny bit easier on normal mode would be nice as easy mode is a bit too easy. Very easy must be a walk in the park!

But as bad points go I think that's all I can think of! I really do love this game. Even my mates was describing it as the best game ever and he hasn't even played it! He has just saty and watched me play the game in it's entirity and said he'd felt like he'd just watched the most epic movie ever. Now that's a game.

Tuesday 16 February 2010

*laughs* I'm really good at this...


I've been avoiding my blog again. Mainly because I have no inspiration of late to write about everything. Pressure is being put upon me from too many sides at the moment and it is a little stressful. The problem is sometimes I need forcing to actually do something for myself but no good ever comes of it really. Ahh well, just got to go along with it and hope really. Hope that everything will turn out alright.

I've been having a problem with finding a news story recently and it's due in tomorrow at 11am. I was panicking about it yesterday because I had no quotes to use at all. But by using my sheer persistence, I actually got an email back this time! It just shows that in Journalism, if you practically beg, it seems to work! So I've got some good quotes to work from. It's a shame I couldn't get any from students and I know my story won't get very high marks, especially as they've now put the standards up but we shall see. At least I have something and from that I shall try my best.

One of the most ridiculous things that has happened to me is that I still don't have my book. I was meant to read it a week ago but I couldn't get a hold of a copy. Now it has been exactly a week (not including sunday) and my book is still not here. For fucks sake. It takes the piss. I am doubly annoyed because Bayonetta is not here either which in the long run is probably a good thing because I need to sit down after my lecture and write up my news story so I can print it off tonight before/after the film society. At the film club tonight we're watching Inglorious Basterds. I'm not sure if it's the new one or the original but I know we are watching them both this week (the other version is being shown on thursday apparently). Haven't seen either versions yet so I am looking forward to it.

I saw Alex yesterday (managed to drag him away from the PS3) which was nice. He came to visit because he's gone on holiday today with the kids at work until friday and didn't know when he'd be able to visit next so he popped round for a bit yesterday. He couldn't stay long as he had to go and do his NVQ work which kinda sucked but better than not seeing him at all.

After Alex had left I did some tidying up. Mainly hoovering as he'd left a mess all over my floor (as usual). We went and had a Cornish pasty for lunch so there was crumbs everywhere. Plus I had been meaning to do it for a while and it was our cleaning check today so I had to hoover the hallway anyway. Then I spent an age on animal crossing because it was a special event day which involved getting candy for a stupid peacock which gave you rare furniture. So yeah, I spent ages doing that until Matt came round. We both had dinner and played a bit of Guitar Hero Metallica until Lewis came round and had his dinner. Then the rest of the evening was spent playing through Borderlands (again!) because he wanted his own save file and he wanted to try Roland. After being Mordacai in the last play through I went to back to good old Siren as she is my favourite. I'm just specialising in different skills this time for variety sake. By 3am I decided to call it a night. We were level 22. FUUUUUUUUU-

Sunday 14 February 2010

Need...sleeep

Haven't blogged for a while. My social life has been a bit mad with people round all weekend! I didn't get to see Alex on Friday which I was disappointed with. He's ill at the moment, he seems to get ill a little too often. Plus he can't sleep at the moment. I worry about him sometimes. But I guess it's up to him to fix himself.

Friday night was mental, Rachel was round until 4:30am playing Portal trying to defeat GlaDos and Lewis, after being very hyper, had fallen asleep on my bed. Earlier, Lewis had gone through a few of my things (again) and found a cat costume so he dressed up in that and did a funny little dance. It was fucking hilarious! Hopefully Rachel will put it on facebook soon! I managed to kick Lewis out of my bed and he tried to sleep on the floor but left during the night because it was too uncomfy. So with very little sleep I tried to survive Saturday, I didn't get anything that needed doing done so I decided I would have to do it on Sunday. Lewis had left half his life round here so he came round after he woke up which actually wasn't very late for Lewis! He came round we played some games, he did some Wii fit until we got hungry and had dinner. Him and Ellie made a stupidly big dinner and the previous day Lewis had gone to extensive (and expensive) measures to make a cheesecake.

We had the cheesecake later on when our food had gone down and we needed a break from Guitar Hero. Rach and Matt came round too and we all tried the cheesecake. It was amazing. So sickly and so wrong but so so good. I wouldn't mind some now actually! Anyway, the night continued with people playing what they wanted. Pikmin and Portal were the games of the evening. Rach and Matt left at some time around 2/3am so me and Lewis stayed up playing Borderlands until he got to level 50 at 5:30am and was satisfied with that so we both went to bed. Whilst playing Borderlands I was talking to Iain who was a little drunk! So funny!

So yes, for the past 3 or 4 days I haven't been sleeping properly/going to bed at stupid o'clock. Since I need to be up for 8am tomorrow. An early night is definitely needed!

Thursday 11 February 2010

Oceana

Yesterday I spent the day trying to sort out housing, finances and birthday cards. Eugh. Housing was successful, I doubt I'll ever get my bursary and I got a birthday card but it's going to be late. There is too much to stress about. Lay ontop the fact I have to write a news article for thursday just adds to it. But I had an idea while laying in bed trying to sleep last night so thank God for that. It might not be that good but it's so much better than nothing at all! So I must start researching that tomorrow, not today. Today I feel like death.
Matt brought the Wii fit yesterday (oh dear), everyone was expecting it to tell me I was underweight but it said I was just about healthy. Yay! I can't see myself playing it and making myself look like a twat unless I do yoga on it or something which then brought into subject the fact I would like to be more flexable (lulz ensued). I thought I couldn't even touch my toes but I tried to from standing up postition and I can! I have obviously improved my flexiablity without knowing it, win! Though it would be pretty bad if I couldn't to be honest so it's not that great an achievement! Ahh well.

In the evening Lewis treated us all to Dominos pizza which was so nice of him. That guy is so bad with money but we all appriciated the gesture and plus it was sort of a bribe to get Ellie and me to go out clubbing with Lewis. Lewis got hagaan daaz ice cream so she had to come! He was fed up with her working all the time and wanted to get me and Ellie smashed (don't worry, that bit didn't happen) so we went out to Oceana. We got there pretty early because the queues on student night are mental if you don't. Hurray for no queue! I'd never been to Oceana before so tonight I was breaking my Oceana virginity. It's a damn cool club if I'm honest with you. We sat around chatting for a bit before going into the "Disco" room. This was full of cheesy pop. LOVE IT! They played amazing song after amazing song from MC Hammer to Lady Gaga, what more could you ask for?! We stayed in there for a while and had a few drinks before moving onto the R N'B room.

It wasn't as bad as I thought, the music was good to dance to even though it's not always my cup of tea. We stayed in there for the rest of the night. Until 2am because that's when my feet had given up and there was no way I could physcially dance anymore. Lewis offered a piggy-back but me and Ellie refused that offer. We were all tired. We walked back in the snow. It was only lightly snowing and it wasn't as cold as it was earlier because the wind had died down. So we staggered home. Lewis came back with us for a cup of tea which I was glad for as I didn't want to be sat up by myself as Ellie wanted to go straight to bed. So that meant me and Lewis sat in the kitchen until 4am talking about all sorts of emotional stuff. He's very sweet. He gets so fustrated for me, he just wants things to work out. I appriciate it it so much. So we talked about some very personal things then decided we really needed sleep.

Of course I lay in bed for an hour thinking about things, worrying about my news story (which led to an idea I am not looking forward to following up tomorrow but it must be done). So yes, this morning I was very tired. I still am. And walking hurts. I seemed to have messed up the balls of my feet with those heels. Need more practise maybe? More practise at being a woman, haha!

Currently listening to: Lady Gaga-Speechless
"Could you give it all up? Would you give it all up? If I promised, boy to you. And I'll never talk again, and I'll never love again. I'll never write a song, or even sing along. I'll never love again. So speechless. You left me speechless, so speechless. Will you ever talk again? Oh boy why you so speechless?"

Tuesday 9 February 2010

Back into habits

Well I haven't written a blog in a while since I lost my mind so erm here it goes.
Yesterday I found out I got a 1st in my Journalism exam, which shocked me but lifted my spirits a fair bit as the teacher said he could see I was definitely getting better. Thank God for that! In fact I was so pleased I rang my dad and told him to tell mum. I just hope I did well in my MW2 article...
I went to town with Matt to try and find the book we need for wednesday since Amazon had fucked us both over. Of course, it was sold out everywhere. Sigh. No copies in the library either so we are just going to have to blag our way tomorrow which will be fun! God knows when I'm going to get those assignments done...ick.

When I returned back from town, Lewis came round soon after as I now had nothing to do. He played Guitar Hero for a bit before deciding he needed another controller so we could play together. So I went to town again! We looked in CEX first to see if they had a pre-owned one by itself. They couldn't find one. Game didn't have ANY. So we went to HMV and they had guitar hero Metallica for £30 with the controller on sale so Lewis brought that, this guitar didn't actually stick, hurray! Next Lewis really wanted to go to Shake-away so we both treated ourselves. The problem is, the milkshake filled me up so much I didn't actually want to eat anything else! So eating dinner, even at 7:30, became a bit of a problem.

Me and Lewis jammed for Guitar Hero 5 for ages until we needed a break from it so we finished off the last mission on Borderlands. Lewis was a bit disappointed in the ending but we have started a second play through already! We love that game far too much...

Today I've been a bit bad really...Alex's car messed up when he was about to leave to come see me, plus he couldn't stay as long as he originally thought. So I decided to not go to my Journalism lecture as I knew it wouldn't be that important. We'd just be sitting there, writing yet another news story so I thought I could give it a miss. He managed to get the car sorted to he came round here for a bit, played Guitar hero with me, went out to get something to eat, had a talk. It was good and I'm glad I missed lesson though I do feel a bit guilty as I feel I've done no work so far, which isn't my fault when I haven't got the book I need to work on! Sigh. I just hope I don't get into bad habits. I'm sure I won't and this week hasn't exactly been emotionally good for me. Though I did speak to JB yesterday on Facebook which was good, good to hear from him.
I just hope I don't get lazy :/ I am forcing myself to get up early on Thursday (as well as tomorrow obviously) to got to Brian's rubbish lecture. Because whether I like it or not, I have to go and I really need to discipline myself. Plus a lecturer I have, Scott, wants us all to write a little bit a day, doesn't matter how much, just a little bit. Good job I have this blog then.

Currently listening to: Alphabeat-Boyfriend
"Oh no, don't you touch my boyfriend, he's not your boyfriend, he's mine."

Friday 5 February 2010

I've done something...

rather stupid. It's my own fault and I swear we, as women, do these things to ourselves. It's almost like we want to get hurt. We can sometimes be very stupid. I've just seen something, a photo. It made me feel sick, not because it was disgusting but because I felt so much raw emotion over it. It's taught me a lesson really, hasn't it, to not go through peoples stuff even on the internet. Simular pictures had gotten me down before but this one was different, it hurt me, so much. I've never felt it before. And well I look at the date and realsie it doesn't even apply, really and then me crying over something like that is ridiculous but I am jealous. I am constantly jealous, constantly paranoid and although I am often reassured by the sweet word or kind act here or there. I will always go back to feeling insecure until everything is fixed, everything is right. Only then can I be truelly happy and not stuck in this limbo which I don't deserve. No one deserves this. But I have done it to myself and now I am here and I'm not giving up on it because I want it, need it.
I realise I am babaling but I need to get this out, I don't care who reads it, I have gone past caring anymore what anyone thinks because I know in my head what I feel, what we feel. I am in love. There. I've said it. Declared it to the world even though they are not allowed to know but I don't care. Because why should I have to hide it? I'm sure most have guessed something to an extent already anyway. So, I am life 2. Number 2. But far from second best. I hate it, knowing that there's another life out there. It's a life that should not be shared, not in any way shape or form but still it continues. It continues because life is complex, things are not easy and people have a great way of controlling one another. And of course, here I am again being controlled. I do it to myself. I could call quits at any time, logically. But emotionally that is impossible.
I am going to stop ranting and raving now and go to bed and to hope it's all better in the morning. I hope my book arrives tomorrow so I can keep myself busy with that as my friends are some what occupied this weekend. I hope talking to myself has helped me.

Thursday 4 February 2010

St00pid Timetable

Yesterday was a bit more successful lesson wise. It was an early 9am lecture and even though I'd demanded Lewis to leave my bedroom early and I must have got at least 8 hours sleep, I still felt shattered. What is wrong with us young people and our tiredness? Anyway, the lecture was interesting and kept me and Matt awake as we had Adam (love him as a lecturer), who's very dynamic, funny and gets the class involved. Basically, he knows how to teach. Unlike a certain other lecturer we have who no one seems to like. I can't help feel sorry for her but she's not very good and sends us all the sleep, at 9am we need energy from something or someone, this is why Adam is good.

Oh and the other night, I was successfully creative with my food! Hurrah! I usually make BBQ chicken but this time I thought I'd stuff it with cheese and wrap bacon around it with Nandos BBQ marinade on top. It was yummy! Very filling though, twas a huge breast. Stuffing it with cheese is good because as it melts it oozes out, nom nom nom. I'll have to cook it for my family sometime as they're always complaining I never cook.

Anyway, straight after the Creative Writing lecture I bid fair well to Matt and went to my seminar which I thought was with Adam as that's what it said on my timetable. Turns out I have Laura again and every ones timetables say Adam (weird) but I was very glad as I do love Laura as a tutor and I feel Adam would have been pushing us a bit too much.

Then I had an hour gap which I had lunch in and checked Facebook, the usual crap. Then I headed back to uni to sit for an hour and listen to someone talk about their lives. For once, the guy was so interesting, the lecture lasted just over an hour! Usually it runs for 45-50 minutes. The guy was from The Guardian and his job was to write features on people he interviewed. He gave us tips for interviewing people and some funny stories. He was a great guy, not one of these back-stabbing Journalists, just a nice but persuasive guy. I wouldn't mind having his job! Even though interviewing people would scare the crap out of me at first, especially anyone famous.

When I came back I chilled out for a bit before Matt and Lewis came over to share some house news with us (we have begun house hunting again). It's all very complicated but apparently we are looking too early because most places want you to move in straight away. If we have to pay for bills it won't be that bad according to Matt's grandma, plus if it's split 5 ways...it will be even better. The house has to be fully furnished, God knows why so many are part, what student can afford furniture for a house they're going to rent for two years!? So yes it's all a bit complex. Ahh well, it will get sorted and even though it's a bit stressful we are mostly excited for next year as we'll all be living together! Like one big happy family, w00t w00t.

Later on in the evening me and Lewis ended up playing Borderlands again whilst Matt sat on my x rocker playing with his DS all evening. Me and Lewis stayed up until 2:30. So I decided I was definitely not going to Brian's stupid 9am lecture. It really is stupid because 1, Brian is shit and wtf can you learn from a one hour long lecture? 2, I have nothing after that one hour long lecture. So I am expected to get up at 8 for ONE lesson. I have a 3 hour gap afterwards. I have decided that I shall attend if I happen to go to bed early but if I don't, I won't. Or if I get warning letters...xD.

Right better get ready for a two hour creative writing lecture. Thank God I have Matt to keep me company!

Tuesday 2 February 2010

10 :)


Well it's odd to be back at uni I just say, but at the same time it's so damn good. I have missed my friends and Alex came round yesterday, we watched Gamer on blu ray, he hadn't watched it without me after all. Twas good times. After Alex left, Matt cooked us all Spag Bol, it was very nice but I couldn't really eat it as Alex had force fed me Gormet Burgers earlier! He didn't want to eat by himself and it is fucking yummy food in there so why not eh?

Had my second Journalism lecture today, we had to create introductions and we were given a bit more freedom with humour and stuff but I'm just no good at it. I'm not witty enough! All I wanted was Tim Vine sitting besides me reeling off every single possible pun I could use but I stuck to the boring, straight forward approach which is fine but I just sometimes wish I was a bit more witty.

Today started off badly, I was woken up by a fire alarm going off in another block (guess it's our turn soon, yay.), I got back to sleep but for some reason there's a big fuck-off crane outside F block which makes quite a bit of noise and it's still there. And as Lewis and I were up to 3am playing Borderlands split screen...I was pretty fucking tired. I got up at 10 thinking I had a lecture at 11, turns out I'd been a complete twat. It started at 1, not finished at it! Flail. So as you can imagine I wasn't too happy but I couldn't help but laugh at my own stupidity. Ahh well, as long as tonight dinner doesn't fail I'll be okay...

Currently listening to: Lady gaga-Speechless
"And I'll never talk again, and I'll never love again, I'll never write a song, won't even sing along, I'll never love again. You've left me speechless, so speechless."