Southampton

Even though we all woke up late and it was horrible weather, we still all decided to go shopping in Southampton. This was handy for me as I had not yet been able to get my little sister a present for her birthday which is in a week. I did manage to pick her up something (which I shant post here just in case) so that was good. The day wasn't really wildly exciting I must admit until it came to getting home. Mum and dad had just brought a sewing machine for my sister for her birthday/xmas present but as my dad tried to drive the car round to the collection point...he could only travel at 10mph. Fail. Travelling home at that speed would take over 2 hours so he called someone to come and tow us home. That took an hour and a half but riding home in the truck was kinda fun.

When we got back it was 7pm, meaning I had to miss some MGO as we were ordering pizza hut because it was too late to make dinner at that point. After dinner I got to play for a good hour. There was five of us and the games were quite good fun even though I was getting a little fustrated at myself at a couple of points. And thus my evening comes to an end because everyone is going to bed early! It's weird, I've had a relativly good day but something, right now, is getting to me. I cannot place it for the life of me. I really hate not knowing what's bothering me, same old I guess. It won't stop bothering me until it stops. Le sigh.

At least I have my friends.

Speaking of which, last night I went to a pub because my mate Bex invited me and I hadn't seen her since Easter. Marnie couldn't go because she felt ill and Alice is still at uni. But anyway, we were sat there, me, Bex, Josie and Chris, waiting for Amy and Adam to turn up whom I was also looking forward to seeing. They were talking about poor old Adam who'd had his first kiss the other night...in a gay bar with someone he doesn't know! I know Adam has had trouble recently realising whether he likes girls or boys or both as he lacks experience. Anyway, they were talking about it all and kinda making fun of him and were generally being a bit grossed out by it all. Basically it was bordering on being homophobic and it was very hard sitting there listening them be so childish about the whole thing. Especially when two of my best mates are gay. Made me kind of angry but maybe this was just me being sensitive. I don't know. But other than that, it was a rather funny night and it was good to see everyone.

Tomorrow I am going to try and get up early to go shopping with mum and my sister. My sister wants to get contact lenses...a little young I thought! I'm sure I didn't get them at that age...ahh well up to my mum I suppose as she has to pay for them! We shall see how it goes. Then in the evening I am meant to be meeting up with Bex and Marnie, should be interesting. Not sure what time or where, saw Bex mentioned mine being a possible location...nice of you to ask...*cough*. Why do I get so annoyed at Marnie? It's not something a mate should do. Why the hell is anyone friends with me?! I'm a complete bitch sometimes! Which is why I was so surprised when Lewis, Joe and Matt were once (apparently) saying how much they liked me when they went to the pub together. I guess most of the time I am nice and I do put up with a hell of a lot but I always seem to think I'm a grumpy bitch, haha. I think it's a recent thing as I've been feeling down about things so every little thing just makes me angry or upset with my life. I hope this passes.

I should stop babbling and go to bed and hope everything feels better tomorrow. Night all x

Currently listening to: The rolling stones- (I can't get no) satisfaction