Monday, 7 June 2010

And so the waiting game continues

Yesterday I had a bit of a bad day, which is a shame really because I was looking forward to this day. In the early afternoon we (me, my sister, mum, dad and my parents friends Sue and kelvin) went for a walk along southsea sea front. It was a long old walk about we walked the entire length of the sea front and it was very hot. Unfortunatly for me I was wearing jeans too but it wasn't too bad. Anyway as a reward for a long walk we were to have a bbq. Kelv was cooking as he is a very good cook. My mum had brought be a bottle of cider because I really craved it on such a nice day and this was part of my mistake.

Recently you may, or may not, have noticed I've been a bit highly strung about things. I'm either angry, fustrated or upset, perhaps all three at once. It's been very confusing for me and emotionally draining but since there's nothing I can do I have no choice to carry on. I wouldn't have gotten so tipsy if Kelv hadn't given me champayne before the cider...it was a bad move. But anyway I got a bit down about things and chatted to my mate Lewis which kind of made me pour out all my emotions. I was in tears and felt utterly stupid for it. Because i'd been crying I got a headache which didn't go away for the rest of the evening so I ended up going to bed early to rest my head. I somehow managed some LBP with some of the OPM crew whilst my mum and dad went to the pub.

I felt much better when I woke up today and I know I have many people looking out for me, which I love. I really appriciate it you guys, for putting up with me when I lose my mind! But I guess you can't blame me! Today I just chilled out as tomorrow is my sisters' birthday and I think my mum is taking me job hunting down Gunwharf too which will not be fun! Either that or we'll be lazy and spend the day baking for my sister as she hasn't got a cake yet and my mum always makes our cakes. None of that shop-brought rubbish! Either way I can see tomorrow being very busy and not giving me much time to play Lost Planet 2 which I soared through 2 chapters today. I'd been stuck on a particular train level but now I'm past that I'm well away again. From the way the story is going I must be near the end but I have no idea how many chapters there are so...who knows!

Anywho I must be off to bed if I am to get up tomorrow! x

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