Zombie Mario?

I had the most awful sleep last night. I didn't got bed until it was almost 3 which I suppose didn't help. Too many people online and I wasn't tired at all. I only went before 3 because I was afraid my dad would have a go at me again so I went to bed. I woke up at around 6am, couldn't get back to sleep, coughing, sniffing, not comfortable, the usual stuff that keeps you up when you have cold. Eventually my mum couldn't take it and kindly went downstairs to get me some water to stop me coughing. It helped alot but I still found it hard to get back to sleep. I seriously considered sitting downstairs instead of lying in bed but I was so tired. I eventually nodded off back to sleep until about 11. I got up and my family were being very nice to me because they were leaving me alone all day to go to Southampton for shopping.

So I set off updating both PS3s to firmware 3.0! Yay! Some people complain that it's ugly but I think they're just being stupid. It looks fine. I love the sparkly animated background, prettyful!!! And BBC iplayer on the PS3? Epic win! I then settled down to play some more Resident evil. I got a few more missing treasures, just the two really hard ones to do now, greaaaat lol. One more weapon to collect too for the trophy! Then Craig wanted to play with me so I agreed, more insults came including "slow bitch" until I put my headset on, surprise surprise! Although we had great fun when it came to the last boss fight with the on-screen prompts on the plane. I failed to save Chris so Wesker kills him, he both burst out laughing and couldn't stop! I have to idea why it was just so funny!!!! We eventually did it after 12 deaths...on easy....-_-. All that button mashing when Sheva is trying to climb up that ledge fucks up my hand :(.

After that my parents came home and ordered Pizza Hut! Woohoo! My dad had also brought Super Mario Tennis for the Gamecube! We'd been after it for a while because we have all the other Mario games because they are such good fun. Me and dad played a couple of games before the pizza arrived, I was dreadful! Lost every match! It must have been either bad character choices or I wasn't used to the controls because after dinner we played a couple more matches and I beat him. Odd. They've got some really funny tennis courts in that game, for example the Donkey Kong one where little crocodiles attach to you to slow you down and the Luigis mansion ones where ghosts molest you to slow you down and there are other ghosts which throw bananas to slip you up. Absolutly mental but great fun. Dad was getting really competative with me! Men eh? :P

All this constant coughing is starting to give me a headache, please I have had enough of this cold now, I hardly ever get them so this must be punishment for not having any of late. I get the picture, go away now please :(.

Slowly getting better

Stayed up late last night again, even though I was coughing away. I wasn't tired and I was talking to far too many people at once. Iain reminded me of the Aggressive Inline soundtrack, what a fantastic soundtrack that game had! So we ended up looking it up on spotify and listening to some great tunes. I realised last night how much I love music. I may not have a massive knowledge on popular bands and who plays drums in what band but I know what I like, what makes me happy, what makes me sad, which songs can make me cry and which ones that make me dance. Music is a fantastic thing, I've never been to a concert mind you, something I'm missing out on I believe but oh well, I think I'd rather see a comedy show! I'm sure I'll get round to it a some day, plenty of time for these things yet.

I did not sleep well. I went to bed properly at 2am and woke up again some time before dawn, boiling hot and coughing, sniffing all the usual cold-like crap, couldn't get back to sleep for the life of me. The sun was beguinning to come up, I was knackered and feeling pretty awful. Was not a good nights sleep. In the morning I was coughing up yellow mucasy crap, reallllly starting to hate the colour yellow now!

So yeah, basically still not feeling great, fed up of coughing my lungs out and sniffing but it must be on its way out by now surely! It will be okay and it's a good excuse to mope around all day I suppose. I just want to be better by thursday night because I want to go out and party!

Played Resi 5 co-op with Craig this after, my God he is a useless nub. First he kills me on purpose because he thought it would be funny. Haha. Then he decides to call me a fuckwit because he thinks he knows better. Dude, I've played this game a bajillion times, I know it almost inside-out, leave me to sort things out! Gah, he's a prick sometimes but it gets me extra treasure, getting me closer to those trophies so i can't complain too much. I got the 4 eggs treasure today too so woohoo :). Over 50% trophies now! Yaaaay. But yes, I'd rather play with Alex or Stew any day over Craig! They know what they're doing and I certaintly wouldn't get called a fuck-wit in the process. Ho hum life goes on.

:'(

I'm not sure why but today has been a really shit day. I think I "got out of the wrong side of the bed" as it were (I don't get that saying, especially as I can only get out of one side :S). I woke up at 12 and felt fucking aweful. Not a good start to the day and probably left me feeling sorry for myself all day.

Today has been an odd day, everyone seems to be acting strange, there is a lot of anger in the air, a lot of stress, a lot of upset. Making it a very gloomy sunday indeed. I just wish I knew what was going on inside peoples heads! I don't understand anything anymore, I really don't. It's upsetting me, everything is upsetting me, it's far, far too much for me to take. Fed up with everything. And it's never going to be the same again, ever. I read that Scorpios hate not being in control and that is so, so true. I don't feel in control of my life or my emotions, I haven't for a long, long time. I may as well be a puppet.

*cough* :(

Another great game of MGO last night, good times, only 6 of us but it was enough to have a few decent games for a couple of hours. Got to play the new maps for a change too, woot.

Feel alot better today, it's only my throat and this cough that are getting me down really. Last night I stayed up until 2am with Stew, Iain, Martyn (who left earlier than the rest of us) and John. It was a random conversation, largely sexual which doesn't bother me in the slightest haha! Craig was drunk and seemed to be hitting on every girl possible. He told me "He loved me.....as a m8". Okay, fair enough, then later on he said "wuv ooo". Oh dear. John said I should tell him "I only sleep with the minions", fucking lolcats! Of course I found this so funny, it had to be tweeted! However, I think they may be used against me in later life!!!! Was a very funny conversation though, good times :).

I woke up to having a weird dream about me working in a pet shop, with a really annoying customer very similar to "somegreybloke" (if you don't know him, youtube him, very funny). Odd dream. Anyway I eventually dragged myself out of bed into the shower, I got under dressed and to my horror, a bruise I had acquired lately (don't ask lol) had turned bright yellow and purple! I'm not even joking, it looks disgusting. Funnily enough, it doesn't hurt AT ALL, it just looks....sick. Eww. I tried not to look at it, freaks me out lol.

Had bacon and egg roll for lunch, nom nom. And my dad started banging on about "how I'm going to get a massive shock when I go to uni". Umm yeah, you forget I lived with Bex and Marn for a week in a foreign country. I'll think I'll be okay. I know it's slightly different and I'm not saying living on my own won't be weird, but I won't be on my own, they'll be loads of other people in the same building as me! I think my dad's trying to rub things in or something. No matter how hard it is there's no way on hell I'm ever telling him that, otherwise he'll be all smug, twat. He's never even gone to uni, he lived with his mum until he married my mum so he can shut the fuck up. He was such a spoilt child, so he can't say anything against me. Plus I despise anyone who says "You don't know how lucky you are", I'm telling you dad, there's SO much you don't know about me full stop. Sorry, ranting about parents again, the bane of my life! Haha.

I stole Battle Tanks off Alex after lunch, it's okay, not bad but I got bored easily and played some rocket cars. The servers were playing up, making me very frustrated. I saw Iain was playing Resi 5 for the first time and I fancied playing it, especially as I needed to get the Gatling gun trophy now that I'd unlocked it. I got it pretty quickly and am now trying to get every weapon possible for another trophy. Then I have to upgrade them all to the max *groan* will take me years! Mind you, the other day me and Alex started our way through co-op mode and hot damn we make a good team. My awesome Resi knowledge came in handy for him and his sniping skills came in handy for me so everything is working out just peachy so far, considering we're doing it on hard we're not too bad at all! And I've been assigned "shotgun girl" (win!) so crowd control is mai speciallity ;). Hopefully we will continue soon! Need to complete it before I go to Uni :(.

Dad said he then wanted to use the backroom so I was forced to quite Resi. Want to play The Force Unleashed at some point (won't be until tomorrow now I suspect) because it now has trophies. I'll delete that old save then and start a new! Gives me a good reason to pick it back up again so why not :). I cannot believe it's half 5 already, where has the day gone?! Mental. Xfactor on tonight along with a host of other trashy TV programs, huzzah! As I said to JB, "Almost the perfect night in...almost" :P I think he got my hint hehe.

Currently listening to: Katy Perry-Hot 'n Cold
"You change your mind, like a girl changes clothes. Yeah you, PMS, like a bitch, I would know. And you, always think, always speak, crititically. I should know, that you're no good for me."

Feeling like Death.

I somehow managed to walk down to the bank yesterday to set up a student account. The guy I saw was very nice but he seemed a bit nervous, odd guy, he set up my account as well as giving me a credit card which I'm not sure I wanted but I guess I don't have to use it if I don't want to. The annoying thing is, I got a letter just now telling me they'll automatically change my current account to a student now! For fucks sake! So now I'll have two student accounts?! I may have to go back down there today, not sure I can be bothered, I still don't feel 100%.

Yesterday after dinner I went to go try MAG and I did, it's great, the best way I can describe it is like Killzone 2 but bigger and better. It's a bit confusing to get used to but I eventually got to grips with what was going on soon enough and in my last game last night I was 3rd place in my team! My team always won too, epic winrar. But after an hour and a half of playing I just could not play anymore. I felt worse and worse as the day went on. I thought I just over-exerted myself or something but now it was obviously the light cold I had had suddenly hit me hard. I was hot but shivering at the same time, I felt kinda sicky and my body ached at every joint. I felt like death. So my mum told me to come off and watch a film. She'd brought back Bedtime Stories from the library, I thought oh God but I didn't have much choice as to watch it. It wasn't that bad actually, Adam Sandler was as funny as always and Russell Brand was in it too and he does make me laugh. I used to hate that guy but then I watched his show "ponderland" and have somewhat fallen in love with his comedy ever since. The film had a typical cheesy Disney ending but apart from that, it wasn't bad and original idea anyway.

I had to go to bed at about 10:30pm, I felt like I wanted to die, everything hurt. I took some painkillers before I went to bed then headed upstairs, I got to sleep by about 11pm. Earliest night in ages! I woke up at 9:30 this morning and felt very awake and alot better so I got up which shocked my dad, lol. I do feel alot better today, my neck still aches but I don't think that's because of the cold. I'm a bit sniffy still and my throat kills but at least all my joints don't ache and I don't feel sick. Feeling all hot and cold last night had be worried I might have swine flu or something but obviously not. I'm too tough to get godamn swine flu ;).

Hopefully I can play MAG for longer tonight! It is great fun and I actually know how to play it now! Haha. Mucho love to all <3

Currently listening to: Hanna Pakarinen-Black ice
"And I'm all out of breathe, nothing is left. So cold there's a chill between us, so cold it will never leave us."

Damn you.

Yesterday, I was out all day, I left the MAG beta to update, when I left it, it said 2000mb to download. Oh fuck, I thought, no wonder this has taken people ages. So I left a note my the PS3 to not turn the PS3 off and set off out. When I got back it was gone 11pm, I thought it MUST have been done by now, I turned on the TV, it said "Error: Download failed". For fucks sake! I checked my PSN messages, I had 4 messages asking how MAG was, I have no idea. I ignored them all apart from Martyns which I replied to: "I r special Sony gurl", hehe.

I was so knackered I went to bed at about 12! When I woke up this morning I felt aweful, I went to the bathroom at about 9am, I felt sick and dizzy and hot. I had to lie down on the floor for a bit to recover before dragging myself back into bed. My throat was so sore, my head was pounding, I was completly dehydrated. It was my own fault. Yersterday I didn't drink hardly anything! I just realised this morning that yesterday I had a maximum of two drinks, stupid girl, could make myself really ill! So I drank loads this morning. I heard dad outside my room and called him to ask for some water and two headache tablets. I drank the water slowly then decided I had to force myself out of bed because lying here was going to make things worse. It was only 10am but I got up regardless, threw on some loose-fitting clothes, didn't bother to brush my hair, needed something to eat and more water. My dad said I should have stayed in bed but I told him I'd feel worse if I did. Everywhere aches. How is this possible lol. It's like head to toe pain. My body is obviously punishing me for something, probably for trying to kill myself >_<. Reader note: I wasn't trying to kill myself, just want to clear that up now before people think I'm depressed! :P

Still, somehow I am super happy regardless of physically feeling like shit. It was worth it! haha. I went to go and restart the MAG beta download but it loaded fine. This is odd I thought, and it came up with the start screen and everything. It just said "server could not be found" I knew it would say this as I was told playtime is restricted to 1am-4am and 6pm-9pm. So, yay! Can't wait to play it at 6 tonight! It's an official test night tonight apparently so it will be busy, testing the game to the max as it were, seeing how many people it can take at once. Should be interesting, the friend who refered me, he said the same thing happened to him, it said the download had failed but infact it had worked! Odd eh? But I am happeh faec that it has worked.

Got to go to the bank today to set up a student account, I just hope they don't change my account details because that will fuck up my student loan as the money will be going into my current account with them. I'll have to ask them, surely many people have the same problem so there must be a way around it. Otherwise I won't have money to pay for housing and I'll be living on the streets or something haha. Can't wait for uni, even though I'm nervous as hell, not prepared very well yet either, going to have to start shopping for stuff too soon. May blog a little later after I've played MAG and such, won't give away too much but I'm allowed to say if it's good or not surely? :)

Currently listening to: System of a down-B.Y.O.B
"Everybody's going to the party, have a real good time, dancing in the desert blowing up the sunshine."

Route 66

Okay so last night I decided to go out with Marn, Yaz (hadn't seen her for ages yay!), Bex, Kirsty and Amy. I went out to dinner beforehand as my parents got back from Worthing. We went to Shorties which is a great little place on the Seafront and when I say little...I mean tiny! But it does really nice steaks and burgers and milkshakes, I went there for my birthday. Anyways, we were having a good time when eventually our food came, dad had about two bites of his and couldn't eat anymore. I'll explain, a while ago he had this problem with his throat, he'd used to eat things and they'd get stuck, it was really painful. We had to go across to the Gosport hospital and dad had this tube stuck down his throat (it was a camera I think so they could see what was wrong with his throat), he said it was horrible and he never wants to do it again. Especially as, after all that, they could find nothing wrong with him. So this odd throat thing happened again, it pretty much ruined our meal as dad had to leave the table for a long period of time to make himself throw up just to clear his throat. Poor guy. So he didn't get to eat his steak! And it was pretty much £40 down the drain as we hadn't exactly had an enjoyable evening. But nevermind eh?

He told me this morning he found out what it was on the internet. It's a common problem, your throat spazms, causing your throat to close up, hence why the food gets stuck. There might be medication he can take or they say as soon as you feel it coming on, just drink shit loads of water. He obviously needs to eat more slowly and carefully too. Why it should come back all of a sudden though, is a mystery.

Anyways after the meal I quickly got changed into my dress, I immediatly felt better, something about feeling sexy always makes me feel better. Anyway I got ready within the space of 10 minutes and went off round to Marnies to meet her and Yaz. Marnie was drunk already (she'd only had 2 double vodka and cokes, proper lightweight) and I did think "oh no" I wasn't in the mood for dealing with drunk marnie. But when everyone arrived we all got a taxi and headed off to the Guildhall. We went to V-bar first because we were meeting Phil there, plus shots were only £1 and the menu was...well amazing, I'd never seen so many shots before in my life! Most of them were rather rude names and I giggled at the idea of leaning over the bar and asking for a "vibrator". I decided on "Viagra" in the end and it was indeed a pretty blue colour. It was yummy! Bex was taking an age to decide, she didn't really want to buy one with a rude name, haha! She had some sort of fruity one in the end and she was too scared to swallow it all at once, amature! Hehe. I had a taste of hers, it was rather strong, no wonder she didn't really like it that much. Marnie had a stupid one, she had sex on the beach, which is usually a cocktail! She didn't like it. I think I obviously made a good choice then haha.

We danced for a little bit before moving onto Route 66, others complained at the queue but we weren't queuing for more than 5 minutes so it was quite good really compared to some clubs. We got our free VIP wrist bands so we got in for free thanks to Kirsty posting on the bars facebook page, it's the future! Anyway it was pretty empty when we got in, although we did get there early. There was one man dancing by himself on the dancefloor, me and Bex giggled, he was a really bad dancer bless him haha. Drinks were £1 in here but they only did bottles so it was a choice of cheap beer, shots or alcopops. I got a VK blue and we went to go dance, somehow I got dragged up to the stage with Amy and Kirsty?! Yeah, I don't need to drink anything to give myself confidence anymore, it's great haha. So we danced on this little stage thing above the dancefloor until Kirsty got nervous and so we all got down, lol. We were having a great time dancing and the club soon filled up, it was student night, drinks are £1...it's ALWAYS crazy in there. So soon we were squished together on the dancefloor but it was fine, not unbearable. But it was so damn hot and I thought to myself why oh why did I wear a godamn satin dress?! It makes you twice as hot and sweaty. I always get too hot at clubs, God knows why I get hit on, I always end up looking like a complete hot, sweaty wreck, is that attractive?! I don't think so, lol. I think maybe the cleavage did it!

We hadn't been there that long but Marnie and the others wanted to go to Babylon, me and Bex wanted to stay so we stayed by ourselves, there were plenty of people from school and college we knew here anways so we had a good time with them. One bloke we were with, a mate of Lewis' who was wrecked again!, got shoved by a girl and drink poured over his head! Was a bit unecessary. One of his friends and ruffled her hair and it pissed her off and she assumed it was him so he got drink all over his hair...oh dear haha! Was quite funny though...man that girl was angry! Toooo much drink methinks. At the end of the night I felt a bit unwell, I'd only had two of those blue drinks but I can't drink as many of those as I used to obviously! They make me feel sickly! We were both knackered by this time anyway and the dance floor was so packed I think I may have passed out if I stayed there any longer. So we sat down with some friends. We had a great time winding up Lewis, teasing him by not showing him our wristbands and he was, for some reason, dying to know what they were for and what they said on him. He's so stupid when he's drunk but it's funny. The chubby guy who got drunk thrown down him asked if we/I wanted to go back up there and dance, I said maybe later, he left soon with his other friend, phew! We met back up with Marnie and the others at 2pm, when the clubs closed. It seemed a bit pointless we'd all gone out together and then hadn't spent most of the night with each other but oh well! We all got the taxi back together. All in all a good night :)