Tuesday, 18 August 2009

Games, games, games!


Today has been significantly better. All day I had been looking towards MGO and when we played tonight, it was epic. 11 players at the peak of the match! It was so much fun, great to have some new faces as well as most of the faithful minions. No fighting, just good fun (unless you count Alexs' threat to shove a rocket up my arse? Hmm lol.).

Gamescon has also been very exciting, I didn't watch it like E3 but I read everyones tweets and all the good stuff was menstioned via twitter. MM announced that LBP is getting water! There's a very cute trailer for it to, the water looks amazing although I'm not sure if the pack it comes in will be free or not. I bet you have to pay...
Fireware 3.0 was also announced to be released next month, it includes more customisation (including avatars, copying the Xbox who copied the Wii then? Hopefully ours won't be as lame as theirs.), message icon to show you have a message, changes to friends profiles, more trophy customisation and some other shizz I can't remember. But anyway, it sounds awesome! Can't wait.
PS3 slim was announced, I think it looks rather ugly-ish in my opinion. I prefer a big beast of a machine personally! I have never seen the appeal of slim consoles. Just a marketing scam I think!

2 days until my results, well almost one day now. I'm so nervous. I really don't want to disppoint anyone, or myself. But I can't change things now. I get scared just thinking about it, can't wait to get it over and done with...

Monday, 17 August 2009

Meh


I am feeling slightly better about things, with the stress being on "slightly". But never mind that. Played Fat Princess with Iain today, beat him 2 games to 1 but to be fair, he had been sent home because he was over-tired! We also played some skate 2 together and did some challenges together! Just a few more and I'll have another trophy me thinks!

MGO tomorrow at 7 apparently. Which is good because I haven't played it in a while! Looking foward to it.

A level results in 3 days now...I'm getting nervous now. I know people keep saying, don't worry, you'll be fine, I have every confidence in you. I have confidence in myself, to an extent, but it doesn't stop me worrying. I know I won't sleep wednesday night!

Oh man not much to write about, makes a change eh. Sorry readers I'm being rather boring today but rather boring than depressing I suppose.

Sunday, 16 August 2009

Fed up

I really am fed up now. I don't know what to do. I thought things would change now, things would get better, people would change, forgive each other, forget what's happened and move on. Oh how very wrong I was, I was too quick to judge and now? I don't think things are ever going to get fixed. I don't know he can lie to me, and say he wants to make things better then just make them worse. It's such a disappointment. I'm so upset and angry. What do I do now? Because I certainly don't know. I'm so fed up with the childish arguements and games. I've had a less than perfect weekend and I feel like everyone has had a better time than me, I know it's not 100% true but for goodness sake I just want to be happy, don't I deserve that at least? :( What am I even worth? I am beginning to wonder...:'(

Pubbing

Me, marnie and Bex did eventually decide to go pubbing rather than clubbing last night. I thought I'd better drag myself out and cheer myself up, I was a bit worried I wasn't going to be in a chatty mood but that soon changed. I got out of my baggy jeans and t-shirt into something a bit nicer and walked off down to Bex. Bex drove us there because she doesn't really drink so she doesn't mind driving us around and not drinking which is such a massive plus for us because we can't really afford taxis too often.

We headed off to Old Portsmouth first and went into Spice Island, lovely pub. The food looks (and apparently is) yummy too. I'll have to eat there sometime! Anyway I got a bottle of cider whilst Marnie stuck to her usual spiced rum and coke, we were there for 2 hours before we then decided we want some chips so we went back to the car. Bex noticed there was a bit of wire coming from under her car. She was scared it was a bomb or something. I said "For goodness sake it's just a bit of string or something that's caught in it". So I grabbed the wire and it was just see-through wire, on closer inspection it was just a fish hook that had somehow got stuck under the car but (thank goodness) it wasn't in the wheel or anything. Bex was scared of it for some reason and Marnie stayed well back, letting us get on with it. Bex unhooked it from the car and I told her to throw it away or at least put it somewhere it's not going to get stuck onto another car. As she walked away the string was still attached to my and Marnie's leg. Bex freaked out and dropped it, wondering what it was attached too. I unwrapped it from our legs. They were both being so dramatic! It's just a fish hook. And then Bex kept going on about how she might have HIV now. It's been in a fish, not a human! Oh dear.

I suggested we head back home to get chips because the Chinese do lovely, very generious portions of chips for a pound! Utter bargain! So we got some of those, went back to Bexs and consummed them before heading back out to go to the Reg. The Reg is a student pub so drinks are fairly cheap, you're bound to see someone you know and they play rock music. It's great. I got myself a glass of Pimms and we sat by the pool table to play pool. Bex and Marnie were against each other first of all. Jake came and got involved, treating them like silly girls who don't know how to play. Funny that Marnie completly thrashed Bex and Marnie had been drinking! Marnie said to me she thought Bex was flirting with jake, I said that's just how she acts around boys, she doesn't mean to seem flirty and I'm sure the boys never pick up on it anyway. Even if she did, so what, she's single she's allowed, nothing wrong with it. Marnie annoys me way more, I'm not sure if she actually is as ditzy as she acts or whether she puts it on! She says really stupid things sometimes and yes, we all have blonde moments but Marnie just comes across...differently. I don't know. She's just a little bit odd suppose.

Anyway I'd payed for their game of pool and hadn't got to play yet! So Marnie went off to find someone I could play with. I tried to stop her, I didn't want to play with someone I didn't really know because I've never played a proper game of pool before and I didn't want to look like and idiot! I know the rules of pool, their easy but when it comes to physically play it...I'd never done that. Marnie found someone, it was Joff. I knew who he was, he used to go to my school and he was in my film studies class but I never talked to him. I think I told him I liked his t-shirt once but that was about it and he didn't really respond...but anyway he came over and set up the game. I had to break. I failed miserably on that part! I wasn't doing very well when Jake came back and helped me on one shot. He lined me up properly, adjusted how I was holding the stick and such. He then told me to take the shot and it went in!! I thanked him for his help and he smiled, put his thumbs up and walked off again. I'm glad he left me to play by myself for the rest of the game, I didn't want someone helping me too much. I didn't do too bad actually. Joff was great and of course he won but by the end of the game I only had 2 more balls to pot. So it wasn't too bad, I did take some nice shots. He shook my hand at the end and said "good game" and walked off. It was much fun, really enjoyed myself and Joff was a good sportsman about things.

After that we went and sat with a group of people we knew from school/college but they didn't really talk to us. Kerry put a wine glass down too hard and smashed it which was quite funny. She must have been drunk, the doorman came over to see what was going on and she got a bit lairy but luckily he didn't hear most of the things she said. We cleared up the glass that had bounced off my leg, close call that. Then one of the best songs came on "The power of love" by Huey Lewis and The News. Marnie said something negative about love. I wish she'd stop doing that, it puts a downer on things and plus she has a boyfriend, who loves her, who she's been dating for about 5 years. They had an arguement before she came out with us (typical, I swear everytime she's just about to go out, something happens and she moands about it) so of course she wasn't in the best of moods about BJay. If they argue so much then just split up and shut the fuck up about it. If they're happy, then stop being to damn negative. I really hope my future relationships don't get like that, although it's guarenteed they will really isn't it? Something nice to look foward to...

We were tired by about quarter past 1 so we said goodbye to the people who cared and left. All in all it was a good night and I'm glad I went I had fun in the end. There were a few annoying niggly things as usual, but you just got to ignore those annoyances I suppose.

Saturday, 15 August 2009

In a blah kinda mood.

Well I'm rather glad I left early last night, Jo phoned me at about 12:30 because she was walking home and obviously it's safer to be talking to someone. Anyway, she told me there was a fight! She know who the men were, a couple of chavs I suppose, the female bar-maid and owner were the ones who stopped all the men from fighting with each other but apparently one guy got proper punched in the face. The birthday girl didn't seem to care though she just said "There's always a fight!". So, I didn't miss much. I went to bed after getting off the phone from Jo but I couldn't sleep again, I didn't get to sleep until past 2:30. It's getting on my nerves now.

Found out this morning my auntie is very ill, they still don't exactly know what's wrong with her but she's having an x-ray on her stomach today, not sure why. But she did have a bad night sleeping last night. Oh dear, am rather worried :( Her birthday is on monday and she'll almost certainly be in hospital. Worst birthday ever :/

Was meant to be going out today but no one has text me or told me what is going on. I don't really want to go out anyway, I'm not in the mood. Marnie just rung me and said instead of clubbing we could go out to a nice pub or something, I wouldn't mind doing that I suppose but only if Bex was driving us there. I cannot afford a taxi. Hopefully we'll go out properly next week, I spoke to Jo last night and she said "Are you coming out tuesday then?", I said "going out where?", I hadn't been invited to anything. Jo said that Yaz and that were going out then. Well Yaz said she wanted to go out with me but she hasn't told me about tuesday! So I have no idea what's going on there. Gah. Marnie mentioned maybe going out thursday night because it's student night at Tiger Tiger. I said I'd be up for that as it would be a good celebration for results day! So I hope we do that, unless I fail. Then I may not feel like going out...

5 days. 5 days until my results. I literally cannot wait. It's weird, I should be nervous but people have so much faith in my it's kind of helped me have faith in myself. I am counting down the days! Yippie!

I haven't been in the mood for much today, even gaming has been boring me. I would like a hug and a cuddle and to watch a film. Nothing more. Shame I can't get what I want eh! Ahh such is life. Don't know what to do. If I go out tonight I'm not going to be very entertaining at all. I need an injection of something :( I hope everyone has fun at Jens' tonight. I'm a bit gutted I couldn't go but not that many people are going anyway. Oh well, there'll be a next time.

Friday, 14 August 2009

Kims' Birthday "Party"

Well. That was pretty shit to be honest. It's 11pm now...yep pretty early right! Well Adam, Amy, Charlotte and Chris came and knocked for me at about 7:25, we walked 30 seconds down the road to the pub and when we walked in...hardly anyone was in there. We stood there, rather awkwardly, waiting for Kim to actually greet us, we'd said Hi, happy birthday but she wasn't too good at paying attention to people. Anyway, we all sat round a table and had a chat about things. Another Amy(H) arrived with Karl. Amy.H does not stop talking! But it's good because she's rather funny and it stops there being awkward silences.

It was good seeing people I hadn't talked to in a while, especially Amy and Adam. Amy told me something she'd done which was pretty...wow I can't believe you'd actually do that but she's still my mate, no matter what she gets up to. Anywho, the birthday girl, Kim, was in this tiny little dress and she's really busty, huge boobs and she, well, let's say had them on show. When she was dancing there were quite a few pervy old men staring at her. Gross. The place was full of old men and chavs...not good. Jake said (about her boyfriend) "Well I know why he's dating her!", nudging Amy.H's arm. A bit harsh but he's Jake, he's only kidding.

The DJ was also aweful, he played the most random songs. Alot of really old stuff but not good old stuff, which was odd because he didn't look that old. He tried to mix songs and scratch (is that what they call it?) but it sounded aweful. He couldn't do it at all. Epic fail. Amy did request Papparazzi and Womanizer and we danced along to those. Womanizer always gets me going hehe. Amy said she didn't know how I had the confidence to dance when I'd only had one drink. Well that's the thing, I don't need to drink to have confidence now :) And I love it. Then that song "pretty green eyes" came on, Amy kept calling it my song haha bless her. It is a cute song I spose.

Adam and Amy decided to get some beers and then go back to their place, I was invited of course but I really wasn't in the mood. Adam said he'd walk me home but I really wasn't in a good mood as the party was kinda lame. And I am very tired aswell. Stewie seems alot more cheerful now, maybe it's because the operation is over now but he's being really nice. It's lovely to have the old Stew back. I hope we can all move on and just forget all this stuff ever happened :) Am feeling very optimistic :D

I also found out when I got home, my auntie doesn't have swine flu it seems! She's been put in isolation! They don't know what it is yet, my uncle isn't allowed to go see her. I think it may be something to do with this:http://bit.ly/125EVQ I am quite worried :/

And it started with a little kiss, like this...

The Domokun cookies (see yesterdays blog)

Well I DID plan to go to bed early last night but that kinda went out the window. I was having a chat with the few of the minions as we wished Stewie luck and such and then decided to go to bed. I had text Alex to see how his kids holiday thing was going. I was lying there in bed. Far too awake for my own good when I got a reply, he's not having the best time in the world :(. I text him back then tried to get to sleep but I tossed and turned and couldn't really get comfy or even sleepy, Alex then rung me at what must have been 20 to 2am. So I got up, went downstairs and chatted with him till about 2 then went back to bed. Still couldn't sleep for another half an hour. Think I've completly fucked up my sleep pattern :/ Oh dear...

Anyway I haven't ended up doing much today, arranged what was going on tonight. Amy, Chris and Adam are calling for me before we all walk up to the Old Canal pub which is just up the road from me to go to Kims birthday party. I doubt I'll be out too late, parties usually end around 12, which is good because it will tire me out and I'll go to bed a little earlier for once, she says hopefully! Should be an okay night I suppose. It's a bummer Yaz now can't come (she can't get the time off work) but she said we should do something next week, so here's hoping! Bex also text me today asking if I wanted to go out tomorrow night, I said sure but I dunno where we are going, she has nothing planned she just said, Guildhall? lol. So erm, not sure what's going on there. It's nice I'm finally getting out of the house although I can't really afford to, haha, how sad is that. Pretty fed up of parents telling me I don't do anything, can't fucking wait to move out!

Reminds me, in the post today I got my batman t-shirt (yay!) and I also got this magazine on uni shizz. In there, it gives 50 tips for surviving freshers week. As I was reading through one of the tips said something about tieing up old relationships and, basically, snog as many people as you can. Erm, how about fucking no. Just because I'm at uni does not mean I want to get off with every lad I see. For fucks sake. Why are us teens percieved in this way?! It's not fair. We don't all act like that y'know or WANT to. And ok, you may think well it's only telling you to kiss people. Call me old fashioned but I thought a kiss was mean to mean something? I guess it doesn't to some people, the kind of people who get was with whoever in nightclubs. I couldn't do that. A kiss DOES mean something to me, it means a lot to me. You don't just go giving them out to whoever. But hey, that's just me.

Spoke to Stew today on how his operation went, he said it went fine, now he's just got to wait 3 months for it to heal before he can have the next leg done. So it's unlikely he'll make it to game on! which is sadface but if all goes to plan he'll be fixed in 6 months! I suggested a celebration party! He seemed to like that idea and I think it's a pretty damn good one too if I don't say so myself!

So I suppose I'd better go now, parents are getting annoying. Hope tonight is good fun. At least it's a cheap night out eh. :) x