Rabbit hearted Girl

"This is a gift, it comes with a price, who is the lamb and who is the knife?" Fallen in love with this "Rabbit heart" song by Florence and the machine. Utterly mesmerising stuff. She is rather beautiful too, don't you think?

Anyway, haven't done much today except listen to music and game. Life couldn't get much more exciting eh? MGO was the highlight of my day, had a few epic matches with some randoms because only me, JB and M were on at 7pm, Alex would be coming later at 8pm. Coming later? Hahaha! Sorry, *cough*, enough of the childishness! So yes I decided to set up a game full of free for all matches because that's what JB seemed to want and they were good fun! Unfortunatly after Alex joined, so did two level 16 girls, one of them was a complete childish bitch for no reason. She tried to kick JB because JB was killing her during a solo capture game. I'm sorry, but if you see someone, the idea is to kill them, even if there is a target involved. So, me and alex said at the same time "no kicking!" haha jinx, anyways she starting LOLing about everything and just being annoying in general. So I decided to kick her, the other level 16 had left, pressumebly she'd gotten fed up with the argueing. EpicSteve was playing with us too, as was Chris McDonald, such dude, great guys to play with. Anyway, I knew everyone would say yes to kicking her but SOMEONE didn't -_-. When I asked who said no, M went "erm" so I'm guessing it was him by accident? Not sure. Anyway it didn't matter because Alex was pwning her in the game so she left! LEAVER! Haha.

After that final game, everyone had to go, leaving just me and Alex. We decided to have a game of Fat Princess! So it was just me VS him (with A.I helpers). It was an epic match. Basically, we kept swaping princesses. I got my princess back then so did he, so I went for the other princess and so did he! So we just swapped! It was a very close match, not sure who won, he thinks he did (typical eh!) but he said I made him work for it (I have to make him work for something!!!). Hehe. Fun times. Can't wait until we can play with some others, I'm sure me and Alex would pwn on the same team. Let's wait and see eh?

Currently listening to: Eminem-Without me
"This looks like a job for me, so everybody just follow me coz we need a little controversy and it feels so empty without me"

Ahh, The traditional family bike-ride..

Seriously, have I gone back in time?! Am I 10 again?! Oh well, my knackered body was dragged ontop of a bike today to cycle all the way to hayling island. I blame the tirededness on an epic 3 hour long conversation last night about random crap as usual. These conversations lead to the invention of new words such as, "Homoprobic", meaning pro-homosexuals! Ahh why does the human mind peak at 2am?! Such craziness. Such good times. Better spending my nights doing shit like that rather than in bed, bored or on facebook, doing fuck-all. Sadface.

Anyway yes, hayling island, off we went at around 12, midday. It took us an hour-ish to get there, maybe slightly over that actually and by the time we'd reached our destination, I was hot, sweaty and tired. Greaaaat. The "reward" as it was (as I would have never let myself we forced if there was no reward!), was a pub lunch, which I was greatly looking foward to. But, did they have anything decent on the menu? Of course they didn't. Argh. So me and the sister ended up sharing a plate of chips, which were very nice actually. Then we noticed the pudding menu...so we had an ice-cream sundee too. Was yummy. So it wasn't so bad after all.

We let our food go down and then we decided to head back. It had been predicted to rain at 1pm, but it hadn't. Nice to know my parents had told us there was a risk of getting soaked! Sigh. Anyway we were quite lucky, it started to rain and I thought "Oh nooooo" but it stopped. It was only when we got back that it started to absolutly pour down, it still is now!

That's about as exciting as my life got today. Now I have a very sore arse from the damn bicycle seat! It's not too easy to sit down :( Parents have gone out to the pub, so I'm sat here bored out of skull *shakes fist as God*.

Curerently listening to: Hanna Pakarinen-Go go (AMAZING song!)
"Now wait. Zero gravity. Too late, no one's having me! Oh God, where's my sanity?"
If you've never listened to this lady, I highly recommend her. I love her! She's amazing. Listen! Now!

Yummy Dinner

My first attempt at cooking dinner (practically) by myself! Excluding all that cooking we had to do in school of course. I made BBQ chicken which Alex had taught me how to cook a while ago (because I'm going to uni soon and need some tips!). I couldn't get the exact same sauce he used but it ended up being nice anyways, even if it was rather hot in places, it wasn't too bad. It was yummy according to my family so yay! And the chicken was definatly cooked so no food poisoning hehe. I do worry I may kill people, I need to have more faith in myself! We had new potatoes and brocolli with the chicken, very nice. I am quite chuffed hehe. Should have taken a picture! D'oh.

Played Fat Princess for the first time this after, is very cute and funny. Completed the storymode fairly quickly, love the fact the trophy for completing it is called "The cake is not a lie!". I can see what Alex meant about the innuendos...I also unlocked a trophy called "Got wood?" Haha! Love it. I look foward to some online games with the other minions!!! Should be so much fun! Blood, gore and cake, what more could a girl ask for?!

Wuv

The picture above was sent to me via my dearest Jenivere, she said "I saw this and thought of you". Aww, the picture is very true, the mind should not get involved in such things! Who needs rationale thinking when you have love?!

I woke up today, not too late, for me but I felt exhausted. Like I'd been running in my sleep or something! My back aches, must have slept funny. I remember having odd dreams, I have no idea what they were about but I'm pretty sure Stew was in one of them. Probably me wondering if his pre-op went okay that's got me thinking about him recently. As well as, other things. Hm.
Anyhow, I dragged my corpse to the postbox to post a letter then came home and slumped on the sofa again. I've transfered all my pictures from the old, semi-broken laptop to this one via memory stick. I also needed to transfer my spotify playlist because I had 300 odd songs on there and it would have taken me and age to build a brand new one on this computer!

Luckily, I worked out for myself I could post my playlist to facebook. So when I logged onto my dell, all I had to do was click on the link and poof! My playlist had been reborn onto this computer, how genius is that?! God I love you Spotify! Iain's just discovered it too, he loves it. I am spreading the word of Spotify! Hehe.

Can't wait till after lunch because then I'm allowed to play PS3 (I know, what am I 10?) and I can play Fat Princess, yay! Then later tonight I has stuff to look foward to so yay! More late night chats I hope hehe.

Currently listening to: Hanna Pakarinen- Stronger without you
"You can't hold me down, now that I'm stronger without you. And I finally see we're through. I know you think I'm weaker so, I'm going without you coz I'm stronger without you."

Extremely Happy face

I'm sooooo happy at the moment :) Not caring about such problems, the ones I cannot solve at the moment. Someone has cheered me up immensely so all is good in my world!

I went to Chichester today for shopping. I didn't really care much about shopping but afterwards we were going to get my laptop from Currys yay! Shame I don't still work there, could have got discount :'( Stoopid Currys...Ahh well, I has it now and it's bright cherry red and shiny black, it's so sexy! Yes, I find electronics sexy, is that slightly weird? Probably. But I don't care!

Alex got Fat Princess today so I'm going to steal it off him tomorrow yay! I would have got it myself but I can't afford it at the moment, I just brought a laptop! Haha. Can't wait to play it, a four way should be fun too sometime :)

Not sure what to write today to be honest! Oh, MGO was great fun as always! Still loving it. Now to just get used to this laptop and install the programs I need to and bookmark my fav. sites again. Ho hum, best get on with it whilst watching family guy, like I do every night hehe. X

Complete and utter helplessness.

Well, I tried to solve a situation, a break of friendship between my mates and it didn't work. I had to say something though, all these problems were killing me. I felt anger and sadness at both sides of the arguement and indeed inside of me.

I went to Southampton today, to go shopping, on the way there, I was thinking about the whole situation and honestly, I almost cried. I'm on the verge of crying now. It sounds pathetic but I was so very happy when I had 7 great friends who all got on so well and now, that's pretty much ruined, all because one person can't be fucked to fix it. Bringing up a problem, then ignoring it, isn't going to get things fixed. I hate this. So I raise my hands, I give up. No matter how much sympathy I try to give out, it's thrown back in my face. The amount of times I've gotten upset and I mean properly upset, because I can't make Stew feel any better about life, is ridiculous. Now I sometimes wonder why I even bother caring. I wonder, if he cares at all about me. I'm going to stop before I start crying, my eyes are welling up.

On a more positive note, I got my copy of OPM today and I'm in it! Yay! I'm raving up COD4 on the top 20 games page, I didn't realise you could quite see so far down my dress in that picture, oopsy, but oh well hehe.

Eugh. I can't write today, it's all gotten a bit too much of late. At least I had a good, long phonecall last night, highlight of my week so far :/ I think I'm going to leave things for a bit, give him some space and take a few steps back. I don't know if I can stomach to start up a conversation at the moment anyway...

Boredom and <3

I got up at 12:30 today, woopsy. I guess I've been really, really tired at the moment, not during the day but when I go to bed I just fall asleep instantly, which is nice but it seems to mean I wake up late. Although, I'm not sure why that matters, I have nothing to wake up for.

I ended up doing practically nothing all day. My dad has been at work all day too since he had an afternoon dance and an evening dance (my dad plays the organ for a living, old people dancing, that kind of thing). He has his own website: www.andrewvarley.co.uk. And I just clearly plugged that for him haha! Anyway, I rather like it when he's not here, is good to spend the day with just my mum, mainly because she complains a lot less about stuff. I was going to make some biscuits today but it seems I couldn't be bothered. Something might be going down tomorrow but I don't know what. Eugh. Life seems to dull here. Can't wait until I go to Uni, IF I go, it's just so damn boring, having nothing to do with your life, waiting until one date...now I know how Stew must feel!

Oh my God, I've just been watching casualty, this really cute couple were about to get married but then the bloke fell off a roof, he was trying to stop someone shooting his girlfriend, long story. When he fell I lterally gasped, thought I was going to cry! I'm such a softie. Now he has died, his girlfriend is saying goodbye to him. Oh man, if that happened to me, I couldn't hold it together like her, I think I'd be in absolute pieces! It's horrible :'( I'm glad real life isn't always this dramatic! Well, mine isn't anyway.

What I do love is when something good happens, even if it's something that someone's just told you, it can make me so very happy. You know in those cheesy films where people are so happy they go around shouting it from the rooftops and stuff? I've been wishing I could do that for a very, very long time...sigh. Maybe one day.